Sat here thinking im such a falier i never got to do what i loved most. Now i dont even love it. All i do now is cry and cry and fight and fight. Im scared there is gonna be a one day where i cant fight anymore. My docs put me bk on my prozac and gave me some valluim. I also been reffered to a nutristion as his worried about my eating habbits. making me so low. I wanna curl up in a ball and never talk to anyone again:(. I so wanna just cut and cut tonight and then take AN OD as i cant be assed to be awake much longer:( im sorry guys. Im just far to gonew and messed up ahhhh. wanna just scream and scream it all out.
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