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Even thought I have been kinda happy, I still have urges to hurt myself. I am very thankful that I am not cutting, but I am not very happy with the substitute. I've been burning myself. I am not proud of that at all! I am scared that I will eventually set something on fire. I feel like I am putting my family in danger and that still doesn't make me want to stop. I feel absolutely horrible about the whole thing but something won't let me stop!
I don't want to keep hurting myself and I think about "losing" my lighters, but I will probably find them and use them again. Not to mention my mom smokes and she has a lot of lighters. I just don't know what to do.
I don't want to keep hurting myself and I think about "losing" my lighters, but I will probably find them and use them again. Not to mention my mom smokes and she has a lot of lighters. I just don't know what to do.
best wishes!
Believe me when I tell you I understand. I've struggled with self-harm for most of my life.. it's a hard habit to break but you have to break it.
What I found is that the more I cut, the more I hated myself and the more I wanted to hurt myself. Seeing the marks and the scars made me angry with myself and made me want to hurt myself more... and the cycle just kept going and going. I made the decision to quit cutting when I was 21 but slipped up many, many times. The last time I cut was about a year ago this time, but before that it had been about 6 months and before that a year... I'm confident that I've beaten this thing... but I really don't know. When I get really low I can't help but think about cutting and it takes everything I have to keep myself from doing it. But every time I make it out of a dark place with no new scars on my arms I feel an overwhelming pride.... much nicer than the overwhelming guilt and self-hatred that I feel when I cut.