Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

What have you tried so far? Maybe some people here can give you new advice and direction you haven't taken before.
That's the big problem with depression. It likes nothing more than for us to isolate.
You would probably benefit from just forcing yourself to stay. Force yourself to be in community with some people.
I am a pro at changing friends, groups, even the churches I go to. Every so many days or weeks I just walk away from this group or that group. I go isolate for awhile and then start the entire process all over somewhere else.
I get it.
We get it.
Stay, please.
Nobody can stop you killing yourself if you decide to, and I for one will feel absolutely no sorrow or shame because I can't control your actions: that's your job. I have no power, therefore no responsibility.
But I would urge you to stop thinking so downright SMALL. Get out of your rut. Get out of this niche you hate so badly. Get out of your world that you hate, and go somewhere else.