I'm feeling like a failure and like I don't really have as much support as I thought I did from my husband, family and friends. I wasn't able to work for awhile when I moved to Canada so I kept myself busy with art and crafts. I had so many of my friends and family tell me I should sell these things and they would buy from me. So I rushed into setting up shop and almost a year later I have only sold 1 item. All I get from these people when asked if they are interested in buying something from me is excuses. Once I was able to get my work visa I applied for several jobs and ended up getting hired at one of our local stores. The job itself isn't bad, I kind of like it. But, I don't like dealing with the customers or half of my co-workers. Lately, my emotions are so unpredictable that I've burst into tears at work and have come dangerously close to smacking and lashing out at customers. I spoke with my managers and my options are to either reduce my hours, continue working as is, or quitting completely. My husband keeps pushing me not to quit because "We need the money." The only reason we need money right now is because of the family vacation his mother pushed us into! We were talking about investing in a camper at some point, so she talked hubby into getting one sooner than we could really afford to because she wanted to do a road trip with the family. We're paying for all the repairs, regular maintenance, furnishings, etc. and they are supposed to be paying for half of the gas and food expenses. But its not just the camper we have to maintain, we also have to do work on the truck in order for it to make the long trip planned. I think the trip is a great idea and I understand why she wanted to do it this summer, but I don't like the added stress its causing. And of course, hubby can't see why I'm upset about this. I don't know if my unpredictable emotions are stress related, hormonal, a combination or something else or me being childish as its been implied by certain members of my family. What I do know is I feel like a failure in certain aspects of my life, lost and confused about what to do about it all, and so very alone even though I have all these people around me supposedly wanting what's best for me and caring about my feelings. In the end I know I have to do what's best for me, but I'm just not sure what that is right now, because no matter what I do someone is going to be let down and I will feel bad about being the one letting them down. I think that's why I decided to post here. At least I know here there are people who can understand what I'm going through and give me some support without making me feel even worse! And right now I can definitely use the support!