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So, the thing of it is, I honestly despise my mother's decisions. I cannot think of a single decision she has made that was a good one.... First, she had me, and I know I was unplanned. Second, she did not go to college. Third, she quit her job to become a real estate agent... unfortunately, she's horrible at it, struggles with bills, and drags us all down with her.... Fourth, she's very rude and hypocritical. For example, she's very overweight, yet she is always making comments that I am "getting fat", even though I most certainly am not. Fifth, she lets my younger sister run wild and basically evolves her entire life around my sister. My sister gets the first pick on everything, gets away with everything she does, and is allowed to behave like a spoiled four year old (she is twelve).
Recently, I let my mother borrow 1,900 dollars. I make 8.50 an hour, so that is a lot of money for me. I owe my aunt 3,000, so I'm trying to save up money to pay her back.... Last night, I asked my mother if she would be able to pay me back and she got really pissed. I cried in the bathroom for a couple hours and swore I was going to kill myself last night.... Instead, I resulted to cutting myself, something I have not done for years.
Thing is, my mother acted like I was selfish. How dare I ask her to pay me back.... I don't know if she's right or if I'm right....
I'm always having to give my mother money to pay her own bills and it upsets me because I make shitty wages and yet, she does not feel bothered by taking money from me.... I blame her because she is an adult and she made bad decisions, so, she can't make ends meet... and she refuses to get a better job.
However, it seems that people make me the bad guy because it is her decision. Sure, it is... but she's hurting everyone else with that decision.
At this rate, my only chance of paying back my aunt would be to prostitute myself out. No other employers will hire me; I've tried to get a better job... just, no one wants me.
I don't see any reasons to live, honestly. It seems my existence is nothing but a hindrance. If I was dead, I wouldn't cost my mother any time and money. I would not be a bother on my boyfriend, who seems to get nothing but stress from me. My current employer doesn't want me, I'm sure. She could replace me with someone better in less than a day... There is no reason to live anymore
Recently, I let my mother borrow 1,900 dollars. I make 8.50 an hour, so that is a lot of money for me. I owe my aunt 3,000, so I'm trying to save up money to pay her back.... Last night, I asked my mother if she would be able to pay me back and she got really pissed. I cried in the bathroom for a couple hours and swore I was going to kill myself last night.... Instead, I resulted to cutting myself, something I have not done for years.
Thing is, my mother acted like I was selfish. How dare I ask her to pay me back.... I don't know if she's right or if I'm right....
I'm always having to give my mother money to pay her own bills and it upsets me because I make shitty wages and yet, she does not feel bothered by taking money from me.... I blame her because she is an adult and she made bad decisions, so, she can't make ends meet... and she refuses to get a better job.
However, it seems that people make me the bad guy because it is her decision. Sure, it is... but she's hurting everyone else with that decision.
At this rate, my only chance of paying back my aunt would be to prostitute myself out. No other employers will hire me; I've tried to get a better job... just, no one wants me.
I don't see any reasons to live, honestly. It seems my existence is nothing but a hindrance. If I was dead, I wouldn't cost my mother any time and money. I would not be a bother on my boyfriend, who seems to get nothing but stress from me. My current employer doesn't want me, I'm sure. She could replace me with someone better in less than a day... There is no reason to live anymore
I ever made. Why let your mother have a place in your life when
you obviously feel so negatively toward her? Be done with it.
First of all, how old are you? This will help people zero in on suggestions for you. (If I'm the only one who does not know your age then I apologize!)
Secondly, stop loaning your mother money! Talk to your aunt and let her know what is going on. Hopefully your aunt will understand, and the two of you can work out a payment plan. If mom keeps asking you for money just tell her that you don't have any to spare.
Do you have a plan for getting out of your mom's house? (Again, your age really matters here.)