i feel so alone. I am doing everything right in my life right now I’m going to school working teaching at church but my mom is never pleased. I feel like an outcast with my family and have lost all want to do things I use to enjoy. My mom is constantly lying about me to other people and telling me what I’m doing isn’t enough to my face. I don’t know how much more I can take of this.
Lately I have been feeling really great. I feel guilty that I am feeling so good because I come here and see how some of you guys are struggling. But I believe that coming here and being able to talk to everyone is what has helped me so much. I hope that by coming here and writing to people that I may be able to give them some peace of mind as well.
I come from a highly anxious / controlling family. I have been in therapy for years and I am now at a place in my life where I can see a toxic pattern that my family engages with. They are always obsessed with plans and getting things right, making plans about tiny details...they do this I'm guessing out of a place of fear. I don't always know what they're actually fearful of. For example before...