Sweetheart,

You Are Loved You Are Needed

Please don't listen to what your depression is telling you.

You are a Beautiful Wonderful Amazing Person

(((((((HUGS))))))) And Love.......LOTS Of LOVE To You From Me

I have been very lonely in my life and still deal with that a lot during the hours my wife is at work as I have few friends. It is so hard when we reach out for help and love and feel rejection instead. It is a miracle I found my wife having all my problems but I know miracles do happen. One could happen for you too. In the meanwhile do your best to develop a support system here. I find it really helps when the "real" world is cold and lonely. I see you have a child. I know kids can be difficult at that age and not real good about letting you know they love you but I am sure your child would miss you if you were gone. Please carry on for their sake. There are lots of people here who are caring and I hope you make some friends that will stick by you and encourage you. Keep trying new things in your life that will bring you into contact with people. I am trying church even though that is hard for me because I need more friends. For now know that I for one care and am sending you hugs and prayers. Message me anytime.

Believe me when i say I totally understand the loneliness and the crying. I feel this way all the time. The most i can do now is my writng to keep my mind from the constant crying. I suffer from agoraphobia for over14 or more years. I have some high points where i love the outdoors with help of meds and therapy. Then i have many lows.. After suffering recent abuse and ending my marriage for three months all I feel is loneliness and emptiness inside.

Probably easier said than done is to stay positive and focus . Jesus will guide you

Thanks... I do have have my kids and I am married, but my marriage is very toxic... My husband does not love me and I know my kids prefer him, being the main reason why I am still with him. I spent many hours a day working, anywhere between 10 to 12 hrs a day to support my family since I am the only one workng and no one cares... I have no friends, and before I was very closed witb my family but now everyone lives far...trust me I have noone that cares.. I wouldnt be missed and to some it will actually make them happy. I am just tired of fighting a loss battle...

It is hard to be in a bad marriage. I have been there in the past. Even though your family is far do any of them love you? Sometimes when we are depressed we see things unrealistically and don't see that people truly do care. I have very few friends who check up on me and I know how lonely that feels. Stick around and make some friends here. It does help. Whatever your relationship with your kids is like now they will need their Mom all their lives and things can always get better. Please don't give up my friend and know we are here for you.

It is hard to get out when children are involved I was in a 14 year realtionship that was very physically abusive . His alcohol problems were bad. I tried to hide the fear of him from my children so I stayed in for them (very painful choice) I did at one point make him reside seperated from my children and I because of the drinking always lead into abuse. But our relationship continued as long as my children and I were safe It worked out well. Five years he quit his drinking so I let him Back in....Abuse began again just recently followed by a violent rape.

Please if your marriage is toxic get out now for you and as well as the children. Dont wait you have to take care of yourself to be a strong mother.
Sometimes I feel I failed my children now they seen my weakness and the abuse. They are 17 and 13 years old girls.I dont want them to think abuse is to put up with.
Its been 3 months since i rid myself of my husband. My girls feel my pain and see it everyday.
Your children are young yet make the right chose for you and them

I'm not too sure what it would be like to be loved. I've been alone for all of my life except about 4 months. Today I felt really rejected by god that I haven't been able to develop intimacy with someone. I really don't understand why it's so hard for me. I'm at a place where I've given up on pretty much everything and passing the days never feeling that anything matters anymore. I worry about my health and that I'm not taking care of myself, exercising/eating, but I haven't got the will to do much about it. I don't know what to do anymore but I am still here with a faint hope that the unknown of the future might surprise me one day.

Hi

I just wanted to introduce myself to you and let you know that you are not alone at all in the way you feel. I too feel very unloved and unwanted and depressed and lonely and I also feel like crying all the time.too. I know crying can be exhausting sometimes, but I think for myself it can sometimes help me to feel a little better, at least it helps release some of the tension and anxiety that I keep ottled up inside of me all the time. If you need someone who can understand and relate to how you are feeling please feel free to message me or contact me and I would love to listen to you and how you feel and help you in any way I possily can. If you would like to you can add me as your friend in this group and I will try to e a very supportive and understanding friend to you. I willl send you a friend request. I am so sorry you are feeling so bad right now...and I hope you feel bettter really soon. Please take care of yourself and stay stong and try to stay as positive as possible....and please keep reaching out to others in this support group like you are doing and keep us all posted on how you are doing. Many people in this group can understand and relate to how you are feeling and can be very helpful. You are definitely not alone. Hang in there and keep in touch.

Melodious0406

thanks everyone...
Tortiz, I understand how you feel. I am afraid of leaving him... When time I did.. he choked me and I did left him and put a restraining order against him. But things got so complicated for me. My girls were mad at me, they hated me because the oldest one had contact with him (through cell and email) and he would tell her how miserable he was, that he was going to be homeless soon, that he was going to jail, that he was going to move to another country far away.. To my kids, i was the reason why their dad was so miserable, why they couldn't see him... I was devastated and felt guilty.. They started acting out in school.. I leave far from my family.. Felt alone, with no help... My girls statrted getting in trouble in school, i had to leave work in a different state to go to their school.. It became too much.. Then he told my daughter that he wanted to speak to me.. I did and when he said he was sorry and promise not to do it again, I let him back in.. The problem now is, he is not abusive, not physically, but mentally... I know he does not love me, but since he does not work and has no one that wants to deal with his mood, he has no where to go, he wants to be with me.. But that does not mean, that he wont show me how much he despise me (for whatever reasons, I dont know)... Bottom line is, I am all alone.. i had friends, but its hard to keep a happy face all the time, and I dont like telling people my business, so I have friends but they are all more like "hi" and "bye" type of friends... No one close....