your not bothering anyone, if you need help you post away hunnie.

Thanks. Had a difficult appointment with my counselor today.
Now I'm just feeling hopeless. What's the point in continuing with this pathetic life?

I commented on your journal. Everything will be ok. We all will help you through this.

your so young.it wont always be pathetic youll see. as i see it your anxious because you wont see your therapist for 3 weeks due to the holidays ? did she give you an emergency tel no for the hol break ?

Ya, I have an emergency number. She made sure of that one.

thats good then, make the most of this place, post post post. theres always someone online to talk to if you need it and make sure you use that emergency number if you have to. hugs x

And remember, you are NOT bothering anyone. This is the reason we are here. Because we all have times when we have crappy days (or weeks or years) and need to talk to someone who understands -- someone who has lived it too. Our loved ones, no matter how hard they try, can never fully understand what it means to be Depressed. We do.

I'm sorry your counseling appt went poorly, but at least you went! You are taking positive steps toward your recovery. i know your Depression won't let you see how courageous and wonderful that is, but truly your efforts are excellent. Your Depression whispers in your ear 'hopeless!,' but it is a lie. You are on the right track and you will feel joy and selfworth again. I didn't believe it was possible either, but here I am on the road to recovery and feeling a sense of hope that until recently I would have never dreamt of ever feeling again.

Stay strong, post anything, ask anything. That's exactly why we are here.

trivia is right, she says it better than me. your never alone here.. we are here to help and be helped.please post and let us know how you are doing xx

Thanks. My life just really sucks right now. And I really don't want to live through it all.

I remember praying that I would die of some disease or car accident. I wouldn't/couldn't take my life because I had seen the tragic pain and guilt that it left behind when a dear friend took his. Yet I did not want to live. I couldn't even remember what it felt like to not be unhappy, the concept of joy was totally alien to me. Hope had left me long ago.

But I spoke to my doctor as you are doing now. He gave me the tools to fight back against the Depression. Like you, I didn't believe it was even possible any longer. But those tools did work. Even w/o my faith, they worked. Today I am able to enjoy life, not all the time, but enough that it has meaning once more and I am grateful that my prayers that it would just end were denied.

You don't have to have hope. You don't have to believe. You just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other and working w/ your doctor. You can get your life back too. Don't give up. It will come if you simply don't give up.

Thanks, though I wish I could actually believe you. I haven't given up yet, but I don't know how much longer that will last.

Well, going to try to sleep now. Thanks everyone for talking to me. Made it through one more night . . .