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i have recently found out someone i loved and very much trusted has been lying to me for quite some time - and once confronted, continues to lie and being manipulative as if to prove me wrong. anyhow - i am crushed, and angry, and suspicious of everyone now.
since my realization of all the lies, i have lately had a fear of going home - i don't want to be alone. that is VERY strange for me as usually i prefer to be by myself and rarely look for company. but these past several days i have been staying at work later and later, and when i finally do make myself go home i cry and sob until finally i pick up the phone and call my mother so i have some sort of company.
i just think this is a strange reaction - anyone have any insight or past experience on why this is?
since my realization of all the lies, i have lately had a fear of going home - i don't want to be alone. that is VERY strange for me as usually i prefer to be by myself and rarely look for company. but these past several days i have been staying at work later and later, and when i finally do make myself go home i cry and sob until finally i pick up the phone and call my mother so i have some sort of company.
i just think this is a strange reaction - anyone have any insight or past experience on why this is?
Nowadays I have gotten my depression and other disorders managed. And I am using the DBT skills to cope with my anxiety and other issues.
I find now that distracting myself with activities works best for me. Going online is one of my many activities I like to do when I need to distract myself becasue of physical pain or whatever is bugging me at the time. I am on buspar along with celexa/ this combo really seems to be working for me.
That is my suspicion. What to do about it ... walk in the door and occupy yourself with something you enjoy. Have a plan before you go home ... that you are going to write some letters, or watch a DVD, or? or? or?. You could even call someone else and visit without going into the depressing event.
Good luck with the process. Time and effort will resolve the difficulty.
Another person cannot prevent me from feeling lonely, but my inner emptiness can be satisfied. When I can come to value my own company, and become my own worthwhile companion.
I spend more time with myself than with anyone else. Wouldnt it make sense to put some energy into making that relationship as fulfilling as possible?
One of my illusions has been that only another person can fill that empty place within me. Example; if only they were with me now, If only they were more attentive now, I wouldnt be so lonely but I remain lonely even if after these conditions were met.
Feeling alone and lonely increases our fears of inadequacy. In our alienation from others, paranoia grips us. We yearn to feel connected with someone, we need a sense of belonging, every one of us; belonging to the neighborhood; belonging to our team of coworkers; belonging to DS the group we call friends. Knowing that we do belong gives us an inner peace, warmth that comes with security, well being that we belong to something helps eliminate or fears and feelings of emptiness.
We need to be conscious of our judgments of others, be they verbalized in gossip or only held by our silence. These judgments act as a measure of our own self-image. Our security in knowing we belong, that we are one, relieves us of the need to gossip or judge others unfairly. Real closeness will come when I can talk about myself rather than anyone else.
When I stop expecting others to meet all my needs I will search for new ways to enjoy my own friendship. And when I do get lonely, I have the comfort and support from my DS friends, myself, God who never leaves me.
I will work on building a special relationship with myself and hope to discover how un-lonely being alone can be.