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okay, I've been wanting to really let go and share my situation with everyone here. I'm 43/m.
So I was doing great at the end of last year. Financially sound and mentally sound. So I meet this girl. She seems beyond perfect. She moves in with me to my one bedroom condo. She says she has bad ADHD. Turns out she has borderline personality disorder. She turned out to be the classic case of BPD. Mirroring me, making me feel like I have never felt. I was blind. I got manipulated. Before I know it I am 30k in credit card debt. I have no idea how but she had the way of getting me to buy stuff without really asking. Master manipulator.
So I realize this is not the person I am going to marry and I have to get her out of my life. It takes me two months to get her to finally leave. She ripped my soul out financially and my heart as I am a kind sensitive man.
I've slipped into a major depression. I'm back on meds. I'm having to rent my condo and move in with my mom. I cannot sustain any longer financially. My freelance work has dried up. Jobs are non existent. I feel like I have lost everything. I'm dealing with total loss of self confidence, esteem and hope.
I'm seeing a therapist, taking my meds. What happens is I get overwhelmed by little things. Currently I am trying to get everything moved/packed from my condo and try and get it rented.
I just has this overwhelming feeling of being a loser, a failure, not to mention the amount of debt I am left with.
For the first time in my life I've actually given consideration to suicide.
This has been the roughest part of my life to date. I just feel totally fucked. I have a few jobs coming up and I am panicking because I haven't worked in two months combined with losing all my confidence. Damn this is a rough ride.
I've lost hope and am overwhelmed. I am struggling in the worst way. Therapy and meds Don't seem to be helping much. Maybe because this is all a reality.
Thank you kindly for reading and any possible replies.
So I was doing great at the end of last year. Financially sound and mentally sound. So I meet this girl. She seems beyond perfect. She moves in with me to my one bedroom condo. She says she has bad ADHD. Turns out she has borderline personality disorder. She turned out to be the classic case of BPD. Mirroring me, making me feel like I have never felt. I was blind. I got manipulated. Before I know it I am 30k in credit card debt. I have no idea how but she had the way of getting me to buy stuff without really asking. Master manipulator.
So I realize this is not the person I am going to marry and I have to get her out of my life. It takes me two months to get her to finally leave. She ripped my soul out financially and my heart as I am a kind sensitive man.
I've slipped into a major depression. I'm back on meds. I'm having to rent my condo and move in with my mom. I cannot sustain any longer financially. My freelance work has dried up. Jobs are non existent. I feel like I have lost everything. I'm dealing with total loss of self confidence, esteem and hope.
I'm seeing a therapist, taking my meds. What happens is I get overwhelmed by little things. Currently I am trying to get everything moved/packed from my condo and try and get it rented.
I just has this overwhelming feeling of being a loser, a failure, not to mention the amount of debt I am left with.
For the first time in my life I've actually given consideration to suicide.
This has been the roughest part of my life to date. I just feel totally fucked. I have a few jobs coming up and I am panicking because I haven't worked in two months combined with losing all my confidence. Damn this is a rough ride.
I've lost hope and am overwhelmed. I am struggling in the worst way. Therapy and meds Don't seem to be helping much. Maybe because this is all a reality.
Thank you kindly for reading and any possible replies.
Perhaps it would be worth looking into in order to get out from underneath this debt. It would give you room to breathe.
You are lucky your mother is willing to take you in, as mine would have said "no!". Again, there is wiggle room for you. You will ride out the storm in the end. Things will get better.
You also know that none of what happened is your fault. You met her.... Things were good. how could you have known what would have happened? You couldn't have. You blame yourself.. don't you dare give up hope. Yes, I am going to tell you to pull your bootstraps up. I am.... and alot of others don't know that I know you well..... i do. Don't you dare give up. I get ' overwhelmed'.. T., keep fighting. You have the jobs coming up. Concentrate on that and get yourself better.
Never ever give up hope.
LMT