Depression Support Group
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Im a senior in high school. I’m currently crying in my living room and eating potatoes and petting my dog. The potatoes aren’t relevant but whatever. Anyways I’m very sad. I prefer to use they/them or he/him pronouns and go by the name Riley. I’m a closeted genderfluid person who deals with major anxiety and depression. I’m not out to anyone in my life, due to everyone I know basically being against lgbt+ rights. I mean I could tell my best friend because she would support me no matter what but I don’t want her thinking of me differently...ya know?
I’m sad because I can’t be myself right now. I’m sad because I want to start journaling how I’m feeling but I can’t because my parents go through my phone, computer, and room and I basically have no privacy whatsoever. I’m sad because I feel like everyone hates me.
I am in therapy but will probably be discharged on october 27th from the office because I’m doing “so well” but in reality I’m not because I can’t even talk about my life problems I’m having and how it affects me every single day and how awful I feel everyday as well. My parents don’t believe my anxiety is bad enough to put me on medications so I can’t go on any. I just want to be myself. That’s all.
Sometimes we can't show others who we are, but we can always be us on the inside. And you can always be yourself on here.
I'm always listening if you ever want to talk.
Then without a doubt, that therapy time was wasted. Give it another try, and this time, come out to the therapist ...FULLY. Therapists can only work with the information they are given.
Medication is the MOST EFFECTIVE means of managing anxiety and depression. I doubt you will be able to manage yours without it.
Secondly, I want to come out to my therapist but my mom and Dad always come back into my therapists office with me so I am never able to fully speak about what I want and come out to him. And my parents are against my medications. I tell them I want to go on them and even my therapist says it would be a good idea to go on them but my parents think I’m faking and it’s not that bad.
1. your real problem isn't your sexuality. That's just a trigger, a catalyst to expose the real problem. The real problem is you don't really have a functioning relationship with the parents. You can't be straight with them, and you get no privacy from them. They're all over you like a rash.
I guess I'd wonder why. If you have attempted harming yourself, then yes, that could have done it. But it's left you in a concentration camp of intrusion and judgement. So maybe there's a way you can do a deal: 'mum and dad, please give me privacy with my counsellor, and in return I promise not to harm myself' - something like that. A deal that allows you to use your counsellor, and also lets them feel safer.
My daughter had a counsellor. First time she went I said afterwards 'so what did you talk about?' all naive. She looked at me. 'that's private mum' she said.
Oops! :D I hadn't thought. I simply hadn't thought...
2. My other gut feeling is about you needing to express yourself.
Sexuality is an adult thing. It's not a child thing. And so as a concept it's over the ten foot wall into adult personal choice land. But it's also in adult right to privacy land.
It's not something you need to come out to parents about. I have never really understood the urge to purge, and I wonder if you are an only child. As children my siblings and I stole stuff, broke stuff, ate stuff... we never confessed. Confessing would be fraternising with the enemy. But for you, you want to tell the parents about you, to be real with them, to be sincere and true. We wouldn't have even tried.
Your gender identity, sexuality, all those things are your own personal stuff. You don't have to tell the fogeys, they have to earn the right to hear your personal stuff and I bet there's a huge amount of their stuff that they don't tell you because it wouldn't be appropriate.
When my daughter told me she was in a menage a trois she then said she was telling dad. I asked her why. I said 'why not just say _____ is your friend? why exactly does he need to know?'
She told him and he turned out fine. Of all the people who might have freaked out, it turned out to be the boy's mother who did her rag. I guess if I were going to suggest anything it would be don't tell the fogeys till you've left home.
But in closing: get that privacy door shut so that you can talk to your counsellor. That needs to be your absolute first discussion with the counsellor next time you see him/her: organising, arranging some level of privacy. Identifying the rights your parents have to your information and how to create a situation where you can get your counselling needs met. Without privacy there is no way whatsoever you can gain anything from a counsellor and the counsellor will know that.
They probably see and help to fix dysfunction between kids and their parents every day of the week. Ok?