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i had to make one of the hardest decisions of my life today. i had to say goodbye to a friend i love dearly because we both know we would help each other self destruct if we maintain any sort of relationship. we have not seen each other for nearly 20 years and we parted very badly back then. it wasnt a choice either of us made but a decision made by my parents to separate us. i sought her out because i needed healng and closure as the whole situaton has continued to cause me great pain over the years. im glad i did it as we talked everything out but we both realise nothing has changed. we still love each other dearly but it was clear from our one meeting that old habits die hard. nothing has changed. so i rang her today and said goodbye for good. ive cried all day as today is also the 3rd anniversary of my mum's death.
this is such a hard night and im worried about being stupid. my emotions are so overwhelming that i feel like i want to do anything to make it stop. i dont want to live through this, its too painful. im not going to kill myself, when i feel this bad i can hardly even move let alone do anything. but i want to take pills, to sleep and forget. and despite my decision I WANT MY FRIEND BACK, AND MY MUM! this really is too much. someone please help me, im drowning.
suzy2173
this is such a hard night and im worried about being stupid. my emotions are so overwhelming that i feel like i want to do anything to make it stop. i dont want to live through this, its too painful. im not going to kill myself, when i feel this bad i can hardly even move let alone do anything. but i want to take pills, to sleep and forget. and despite my decision I WANT MY FRIEND BACK, AND MY MUM! this really is too much. someone please help me, im drowning.
suzy2173
I am sorry about your Mom too.
Try to get a bigger picture of your feelings too. I mean, allow those other feelings in too. No doubt you have good memories of your Mother and your former friend. Let those happy feelings in too.
This is where people call me crazy, but I'll go out on a limb. When I get like this about people who are permanently gone from my life, I talk to them. Sorry, but I am one of those wackos who sincerely believes they are still 'with us'. I tell them how much I miss them, and let them comfort me.
It really IS "too much". But this is life. I learned not to FIGHT death. The harder I fought, the worse letting go was for me.
Hugs.