Oh sweetie.

I'm so sorry you are hurting so much.. I don't know what has happened this week, but I'm sorry your spirit is broken and you feel like a failure.

I DO believe that that things can get better. Tomorrow is a new day and no matter what happened last week or last year or even yesterday.. it's gone . Don't look back. Move forward. small steps.. okay?

((((((((((((((((( gentle hugs )))))))))))))))))))

Me.

It's painful to here that you're going through this.

What made you say this about yourself?

It's clear from your choice of a picture and avatar name (I like Futurama too) that you have a good sense of humor. That's a great trait to build on.

I hope you'll keep active on this thread and let us know how you're doing.

I hate to hear you call yourself a failure honey when clearly you are NOT. Yes, tomorrow will be a better day and things will start getting better. I won't promise tomorrow, because we don't know what each day brings, but it WILL get better. Hugs GB

Hi, I'm OCP and am hoping your still around. I can't tell you how many times in the last 27 years, since I was DX'd BiPolar w/Severe Suicidal Ideations, that I've thought of swallowing a bottle of pills, of have gotten the pills to my hand ready to go. Sometimes people just don't get how much depression hurts, how much of a physical hurt there is to it as well as the psychological hurt, and its not something that just goes away....

Having attempted as many times as I have and having spent as much time in Psych wards as I have I've learned that there are other ways to fix things besides swallowing those pills.

Finding a good Therapist to work with is a almost a must if your not there already. There is a Therapy Class called DBT and it helps you learn many great coping skills to do when you get upset, depressed, and at the end; skills that teach you what to do instead of taking the pills. Believe me there are ways to do this so that you get help and learn skills to use to keep yourself safe, and its outpatient. I'm sure the loved ones in your family want you around for as long as they can have you.

Let me know if you want to talk more, or would like more info. about DBT.

Take care,

OCP

I have broken ....the first time was the worst ....I ended up in the hoital and they had to give me ECT because I was going dowen to far to fast .......I never wanted to be her but for some reason when I turned 50 I decided I wanted to be here after all ..imagin if I would of given up befor that what I would of mised .....you never know what is comming ....get all the help you can get .....you are not a falure you are here .....do you have any idea how strong ..you have to be to live with depreshion or any other mental disorder .................we are strong people ...you are right tomorow is a nother day ...a new beginning ....look for the good ..in the smallest things ...and breath it in .......positive energy ....it is what I do ...right now I am enjoying my flowers ....I go outside and just look at them .and breath in there buity ....there positive .energies ......the more positive energy you can bring in to you the less room you have for the negative energies .....the dark can't live in the light .........I ....will keep you in my prayers ..take good care of your self ..God bless