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There are times that I am so depressed that I feel as if I cant breath. There is a lot gong on in my life, not sure if I will have a job tomorrow, still trying to recover from hurr Sandy and I dont have a boyfriend in my life. The last one is just as hard on me as the other two things going on. I have been divorced now for three years and have had a couple of dates but that is it. I never thought I would be alone when I made the choice to divorce my ex, because he was lying and cheating on me. He of cause has a girlfriend for two years now which makes it even worse. I do have to say with all of this going on in my life I am not sure if it was all taken care of I would feel 100% sometimes I think its not the things in my life, but just me. I think I would still feel bad even if all was ok. I am not saying I wouldn't feel a bit better but not 100%. I just want to feel that calmness, that happy feeling that makes you feel like it is ok. I want to get rid of that heaviness I feel. I dont think medication is for me since I am on so much now to control my migraines, and to help the pain when I do get them. I also on other medication for other problems. Well just wanted to vent I guess thanks for listening.
Job security ... don't have many details on that point. Is it a performance issue or something else? Can't really comment without more information.
Boyfriend .... what are you doing in order to GET a boyfriend in your life? On that point,, I think you need to think FORWARD and not so much backward.
The divorce is final ... and way back in the past. It does nothing for you to pine about it ... except make you feel bad. I would hope you could say "Man, am I glad I am out of that hurtful, cheating, lying situation. Now .. look out world, ... here I come ... to make a good life for myself." You shed a source of unhappiness ... don't reach back for it.
"He of cause has a girlfriend for two years now which makes it even worse." Who cares if he has a herd of sheep?
Medication: Unless you are a medical doctor, leave it to one who knows the science .... and if you need medication for your mental state (according to your prescribing doctor) then go for it. He/she would know if it would be helpful or not.
I understand and accept your depression. You understand it .. but accept it a bit too easily. Please don't be insulted .. that is the nature of depression .. it attempts to defeat optimism, energy/effort, limit outlook, and otherwise destroy one's life. It is a severe mental illness . ... and you probably NEED professional help in treating it.
Its not that I want him back its that he is such a nasty lying cheat that I just don't understand how he was able to find someone and I can't. He is so bad that my kids want nothing to do with him. Yet I am a good person I think no one wants me which of cause does not help me feel better about myself.
Like I said I do think it is more then all this, but really want to try to avoid meds at this point I am thinking of maybe natural stuff. I know I need to do aomething I am tired of waking up crying and nothing has even happended yet. I am tired of feeling numb and at the same time feeling pain (sounds strange I know) I have been to a therapist, but I could not pay anymore so I had to stop. Anyway thank you for your in put.
Take care,
dj
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