Hi amanda! How long have you felt this way? Is there something going on in your life that is upsetting you?

Please let us know a little more information if you can. Would love to help.

Hi Amanda, you should go talk to a doctor about your symptoms. I get the same feelings and was diagnosed with major depressive disorder and generalized anxiety disorder. You may not have either of these, and it may just be situational feelings based on what's going on in your life right now.

Self diagnosis, while very insightful, can be a dangerous thing for us. It sounds like you are afraid you may be (or become) a paranoid schizophrenic like your aunt.

The dangerous part is believing our guesses without getting professional help.

Yes, by all means, I agree with Restful! Talk to your doctor, and then insist that you get a mental evaluation from a professional to make sure that you know what you are dealing with.

From what you say in your profile, I think that your chronic pain may have something to do with your thoughts and feelings.

Gentle hugs

thank you for your advice. right now i'm looking for a job. im scared to death of dealing with people, also i'm scared i'll be in so much pain with my back that i won't be able to handle it on a new job. i stay depressed and worried all the time. i can never relax. i go to the dr on the 11th, im gona call tomor to c if they can get me in sooner.

I've seen your post mentioning your scoliosis before, I have that same issue.What kind of doctor are you going to see? Good luck with your appointment.

I will be seeing a psychiatrist, hopefully to get some meds to make me feel better. maybe have less anxiety and less depression