Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I feel completely alone tonight, not wanting to realize what my life has become, existing with someone who now hates me mostly, not even friends much less anything else, I have wanted to feel wanted and loved for so long, and pieces I did have of this have left now for months, I have to make myself go back to the gym tomorrow, I am tired of being miserable, tired of being lonely, just to sit and watch tv much less cuddle to sleep, not have sex, to bond and make love to one that loves me, not that tries to love me and has told me that they did for years, makes you feel useless and worthless and not even alive, I have to find life from this, I have to get out of the area I am in, I won't drink it away, I do start a divorce class tomorrow night, have met a couple people that talk to me, I am tired of feeling alone and know I have isolated myself, all I ever wanted was my family, alll I ever wanted was to feel truly, deeply, passionately, breathtakingly, butterfly loved, my marriage never was this, it makes me groan from my soul, I pray God let me find peace in myself, and that someone would truly value and want me one day.
My journal today, God I pray that there is life after this, they say a divorce can be more devastating than a death, I have no parents, little family and none to run to, I am truly alone in many ways, and pray such mercy to be on me.
My journal today, God I pray that there is life after this, they say a divorce can be more devastating than a death, I have no parents, little family and none to run to, I am truly alone in many ways, and pray such mercy to be on me.
There are so many people who did not want their marriage to end, and
later on, felt very grateful for the good things that happened, that would
never have happened if they had stayed in the marriage.
Sending you good thoughts and hoping that good things come your way.
Of course, youve been dealing with this low emotional latitude for a very long time and it is a very special time of great heaviness for you and your family. Sorry for this. I really hope that you will find strong reinforcements to stable you during such times as this. Please develop a sure way to track what triggers you emotionally; this way will help to equal your strength during those particular times where you seek for emotional comfort and mental safety.
You speak of God and prayer. Have you considered rereading the story of Job? Job received sunshine after the rain. And I associate your experience with where Job was at the point of great emotional and spiritual challenges; however, God finally delivered him from sorrow and so can He do this for you, TinMan. Fret during those times of human weakness when you have to, but fear not, as you do believe that God loves you and God is the only powerful way of comfort to you at this time. I am glad that you are not bottling up your feeling too. Job shared his thoughts and feelings with God as well and I really believe that you may find comfort as you read his this bible story. Please read with constant trust in the Lord; for He is the only way to open the way and deliver you from sorrow. I pray with you as well for great and powerful strength to come directly to you and your dear family.
Ambi