Depression Support Group
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I don't usually post much but I am freaking out right now. My depression and anxiety are getting worse. I don't know what to do.
I am so stressed out and full of anxiety. I am getting really behind in my bills and now several are threatening to cut me off. I don't know where they think I'm magically going to come up with the money. I am doing the best I can with what money I have.
Now I received a letter and they've put my disability on hold because my caseworker hasn't received the reassessed amount on my school loan. Well they just finally fixed it and I still haven't received the letter to confirm the changes. He says Ill still get this months cheque but I don't understand when it says in the letter that as of August 22 I'm on hold. I don't understand how they can do this. How can they just put you on hold and expect ppl to survive.
This makes me so anxious and then I just feel like giving up. I won't have the money I need to buy some stuff that is supposed to be required on the first day of my program. I just hope the professors will understand when I explain to them why I don't have the stuff yet and can't until the student loan is deposited. My mom thinks I'm making a mistake returning to school because of the costs involved. Most of it will be covered under the loan, but because I can't afford to buy stuff required by the start date. I've already had to put out a lot of money for other school stuff required, which in turn has added to the being behind in bills. I'm going to be in huge trouble if my disability doesn't get deposited at the end of the month. I may not be able to pay my rent and Ive never had to pay my rent late...what if they decided to evict us....oh gawd the list just keeps getting longer.
How do I get rid of these feelings of helplessness and wanting to give up. Seems like the only escape right now.
I am so stressed out and full of anxiety. I am getting really behind in my bills and now several are threatening to cut me off. I don't know where they think I'm magically going to come up with the money. I am doing the best I can with what money I have.
Now I received a letter and they've put my disability on hold because my caseworker hasn't received the reassessed amount on my school loan. Well they just finally fixed it and I still haven't received the letter to confirm the changes. He says Ill still get this months cheque but I don't understand when it says in the letter that as of August 22 I'm on hold. I don't understand how they can do this. How can they just put you on hold and expect ppl to survive.
This makes me so anxious and then I just feel like giving up. I won't have the money I need to buy some stuff that is supposed to be required on the first day of my program. I just hope the professors will understand when I explain to them why I don't have the stuff yet and can't until the student loan is deposited. My mom thinks I'm making a mistake returning to school because of the costs involved. Most of it will be covered under the loan, but because I can't afford to buy stuff required by the start date. I've already had to put out a lot of money for other school stuff required, which in turn has added to the being behind in bills. I'm going to be in huge trouble if my disability doesn't get deposited at the end of the month. I may not be able to pay my rent and Ive never had to pay my rent late...what if they decided to evict us....oh gawd the list just keeps getting longer.
How do I get rid of these feelings of helplessness and wanting to give up. Seems like the only escape right now.
I stopped working because of my depression and anxiety. I want to return to school so I can get a job that is better than a retail, minimum wage job. I get about the same amount on disability, but like you said at least with a job I wouldn't have to worry about being put on hold for my money.
Thanks again!
However, a lot of people also choose to continue their education despite the financial challenges. My family is one of those. I will not bore you with my story, but if it is something you want, it is worth the struggle to get it. If I say education is one of the most important things, I usually get lashed out because many people do not get the chance to get there. As you mentioned, it gets you a better job and better pay.
I always make it long and winded I apologize. All I'm trying to say is that I admire your strength for trying to go to school despite your hardships. I will tell you this though, I would call to follow up where your cheque is. Not to nag your caseworker or whoever is in charge, but to get a date on when you will receive it. If you manage to make them tell you when you will receive it, it will help ease your mind a little and also, incase of any hang-ups with your case, it may help move it along. It's the digital age for God's sake, everything should be in the "system" and crystal clear.
I found it helpful in all my financial struggles to make everyone spell out everything to me, just so I can keep myself sane. I fought with my bank until they gave me a full report of every future repayment on my loan, including the interest. It's not that I don't know how much I borrowed and what the rate is, but when things are spelled out infront of you, and you know exactly how much and when and what, it makes you feel more in control. Like balancing your checkbooks. It doesn't necessarily mean you will spend less, but it will show you where all your money went, and make you think "oh".
Good luck with your education. I am sure that it will work out, it has to! And you will feel much more empowered for similar situations in the future once you've completed your goal.
School is important. I left a few years ago with being undecided but I need to get back to it and at least try.
I am returning to school for Practical Nursing and may only be going parttime due to the depression and anxiety.
Here we are allowed to return to school and still receive disability. that is why my loan can only cover school costs and no living expenses, which is what they screwed up on.
I can only try to go and hope I can at least do parttime. My pdoc thinks it will be good for me because it is something I'd like to do and when I'm done the pay is at least double the minimum wage here and i can also just work parttime....and still stay on disability.