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Why am I so stubborn and stupid about applying for disability??
I can't figure myself out. My pdoc wasn't against me getting a job. Now I have a parttime job and all it has done is make me more stressed and my anxiety way worse. Pdoc and counselors want me to stop working and call about disability. I'm afraid too. I'm afraid to not have a job and afraid to be on disability.
There are so many what ifs. They keep telling me to not worry about all the what ifs and just take it day by day.
My b/f said to me why are you working because I am only getting worse. I am going completely backwards not forward at all.
I spend more time wishing I was dead again then living.
Am I afraid to get well or am I just plain stupid.
I feel so sad, alone and scared.
I have to go to work soon and all it does is make me panic all day and throw up. I can't stand working with the public anymore and I get so tired from my anxiety that I literally just want to fall over and sleep on the floor.
I can't figure myself out. My pdoc wasn't against me getting a job. Now I have a parttime job and all it has done is make me more stressed and my anxiety way worse. Pdoc and counselors want me to stop working and call about disability. I'm afraid too. I'm afraid to not have a job and afraid to be on disability.
There are so many what ifs. They keep telling me to not worry about all the what ifs and just take it day by day.
My b/f said to me why are you working because I am only getting worse. I am going completely backwards not forward at all.
I spend more time wishing I was dead again then living.
Am I afraid to get well or am I just plain stupid.
I feel so sad, alone and scared.
I have to go to work soon and all it does is make me panic all day and throw up. I can't stand working with the public anymore and I get so tired from my anxiety that I literally just want to fall over and sleep on the floor.
from the little I know about how you are feeling - you should really think of leaving the job scene, at least just for a little while. you don't want to wear yourself out over the worry and all that - got to take better care of yourself, it's ok to take a break from working.......
Have a good day!
Part of why I am being stubborn is because I work in a drugstore - front shop. I have planned to go back to my program at college in January against pdoc's wishes to the pharmacy techician with plans to move back to the pharmacy for work.
Overall my plan is to eventually work in a hospital, but where I am at would be great for my placement and experience.
But my counselor tells me that there are plenty of other places to get a job other than where I am working now and that I need to do the disability now to get well.
I guess I'm just afraid.
I will place the call this week and find out what's involved and see if I can get an idea of the amount. I have two kids I have to support as well.
Thanks again!