and I am REALLY REALLY SORRY you feel those things.

I haven't seen you here for awhile.. since 'stuff' was upsetting you with your housemates.... and I guess I can say ' I'M SORRY I DIDN'T REACH OUT MORE'..

'cause I am. I see , clearly, that you are in alot of pain.. and it breaks my heart sweetie...... I'm on........ pm me.. or just stay here on the board and talk if you want to.. I won't push. I don't know what prompted this post.

I have known you for a very long time.. and the person you describe is not the friend I know and love.

I am worried. I am, you know I am after reading this. but I don't say that to make you feel bad.. you know that too. I am here for you......... so is everyone else.

Please message me if you want to talk. Love you.

i made a few apologies to myself too, and what i found really helpful was the idea of making amends, that feeling regret and saying sorry was just a first step, and that it laid the way to make it up to myself and earning my own trust back

and when i started doing that, lasting change took place

Sometimes friendship means never having to say sorry...

Though I do not entirely agree with you, .. you should now realize you have cleared the table' ... and from this point on are free to live a good life .. with nothing to apologize for.

I sense that you beat the hell out of yourself .... and when that develops, you are in for a lifetime of beatings. No happiness, no joy, no self love.

I hope you can (now) stop doing that. You are forgiven .. I am certain of it.

I second what WV said.

The fact that you are willing to apologize for things, shows that you are willing to learn and grow from them. Just one thing, I don't believe the creator wasted anything on you, you are worth happiness and more. The hardest thing in life is to challenge the negative mindset we each have. To ignore it and tell it that it has no more space in our lives.

"Let he, who is without sin, cast the first stone."

To be human is to be imperfect where the great part is when we see the need for change we then have a choice to make.

Sweetheart,
We All Have Done Things That We Are Sorry For.
We All Have Made Mistakes.
It's Okay That You're Not "Perfect" .
Please, Honey..... Don't Be So Hard On Yourself.

You Are A Wonderful Friend To Me And Countless Others. :)
And I Love You Very Much :)
(((((((HUGS))))))

Wow, I'm sorry that you feel this way. It would seem that, like myself, you're your worst enemy. I don't know you, but I'd like to say what I think about each one of these.

1- You're not a user on here. This is a place to get support that you need from others and also a place to give support to others IF you have it to give. Please don't beat yourself up for not providing what you simply just don't have.
2- "A friend is someone who gives you total freedom to be yourself." - Jim Morrison
3- It's so easy to look back on our lives and find things we wish we did differently. However, just one thing could change where we are now and who we are.
4- Damn, this one hits me very close to home as I have a daughter myself. I am hard on myself as a parent, my daughter's only parent since her dad passed. As I do feel she got a raw deal with me, I feel that she was given to me from God and He makes no mistakes. We have a disease, just like cancer. We can only do the best we can do, just like every other parent in the world.
5- I'm working on this one too. It's not easy. It takes a long time for mostly everyone I know.
6- "When you know better, you do better." - Maya Angelou
7- I truly believe that most people have done this and continue to. If it helped anyone in any way, I see no harm in that.
8- This one really breaks my heart. You are a child of God. God is the ONLY one who makes no mistakes. He is perfect. None of us feel worthy of His love, but we are made worthy through the blood of Jesus.
9-You're someone who struggles with depression. Depression tells us so many lies. We all have our demons. I don't even know you, but I thought you were worth taking the time to reply to your post. If you were a sorry excuse for a person, you wouldn't admit what you perceive to be negative things on your part. You wouldn't give two shits about what anyone thought of you.

I pray that your depression lifts soon and you will then begin to see the good in you again. God Bless.

Thank you all so very much for your support and wonderful words of compassion, love and wisdom. Knowing that some one cares and even loves me really does make a difference. Now to take on this insidious bully and stop his lies and painful hurtful words. This fight is going to be a hard one. But I guess it is worth it. Here is something I just thought of . If it helps it yours to use as needed.

" If in living there were no struggles.
Then dying would be too easy. "
PEACE and Much LOVE to you all.

Typed something. Computer died. Don't want to seem disingenuous. Every thought can have a polar opposite which can be just as true. Start again, do your best. It's all we can ask of one human being. We are all valuable.

You were just on my mind the other day. And funnily enough, I wasn't thinking you needed any kind of lecture about anything. In fact, I just missed you, missed the way you tell a story and missed your whole sense of humor.

You do a lot of things right, my friend. Whoever/whatever is on your case for all that other stuff, is probably a jerk.

OOOX