I had to come back. I was doing okay but then in Jan my depression got worse again. I tried to just deal with & act like I was fine but in reality I just let it take over and stopped doing everything that I loved. I find myself making excuses to not do things. I'm on viibryd 40 & wellbutrin 150 twice a day. I know I can't up my viibryd any more but not sure about my wellbutrin. My vitamin d is also low, up from what it was about 7 months ago but still low. I feel like I'm just going through the motions at times. I really needed to come back to you guys who understand, at my friends house the other day she made a comment to her daughter & I know she did it without thinking. I was talking to her daughter & she had asked about my 2 boys that are on antidepressants, then told her mom that her brother said she needed to go to the dr/counseling (she's in counseling already, it's a long story) her mom told her when her apt was & that she just needed to snap out of it. her daughters father was never really involved in her life at all just when he wanted to be or his parents wanted him to be, she lost her grandfather to cancer in 2006 when she was 7 almost 8 and now her stepdad ( who has been dad to her since he came around) is fighting cancer.