He tells me he can see it in my eyes that I have been doing better, but how can he say that after he threw me away. It's like people get a personal pleasure watching me suffer. Here let me bleed for you all....

Friend, there are plenty of men out there and he really doesn't sound like a good person or friend to hurt you like that. I know life sucks and has its hard parts but just stay here and vent to others who understand how this feels. I know your hurting and have every right to feel how you are. Just keep talking and get it out, I will listen.

Your not a failure! it will get better! Maybe you should just be patient and supportive right now of him. And it scares most people to hear you're gonna kill yourself. Be good to yourself. Please, have a little faith that things are getting better and they will. hugs!!!

He sounds immature. I doubt he did anything to purposely hurt you, just probably not knowing how to support you appropriately. I'm here if you want to talk. Here's a song I thought you might like.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KEsSiHtv3QI&feature=related

I have no one to talk to off of DS now. No one. Just my parents and that isn't enough. I feel like I went backwards from this experience. I was really trying to get out more and try and make friends again. And I did, but once again I am rejected. My parents have to support me and I am 22. I get rejected by everyone. Friends, family JOBS. I feel like I haven't had a life and I don't know how to make one for myself. There is literally nothing for me to live for. NOTHING. A cat to feed and that's it. I really tried to make a change, I really tried so had to get better. But I'm afriad now I'm going to get hurt again, and again and again...I'm not getting any stronger by this, it's hurting me so bad. I can't take this.

Friend, I understand that feeling of getting hurt a lot. I go through that too. It seems I get close to people and then before you know it, they aren't there anymore. I am not close with my family. All I can say is I am sorry you feel so rejected. Your not alone in those feelings though, I can guarantee you that.

I wish I could tell you how to find true friends who will stick by your side through anything or to find a man who will always be there. I can't tell you those things but I think even when it seems impossible, holding onto the hope that tomorrow will be better is the only thing most of us have. Keep venting here and I will be here.

Everyone keeps telling me if I want a change, I have to make it. How? I have done everything to try and make my life better. Do I even have a life? My mum keeps telling me I need to get on food stamps...I feel like such a failure. Why was I told all through my youth that after high school if I went to college and did my best things would be easier? Why? Why was I misled? When will I be able to become a adult? Have a friend? How much longer do I have to keep watching morons with zero college experience fall into jobs ass backwards while I'm literally starving in isolation? How much longer do I have to watch ass holes live happy lives?

Wont someone message me? Please... I know I shouldn't expect responses right away, that is selfish. But I still hurt and I can't take not having anyone to talk to. please

I messaged you!

There's nothing wrong with gettting on food stamps for people who need them. If it will appease your mom, do it. Take help that is available to you. It's nothing to be ashamed of. They come on a little credit card that you swipe and it's really not a big deal.

Friend, You have a friend in me. I hope you know how much i care about you. PLEASE keep trying. One day your dream job will come. One day your dream man will come when you least expect it.

You're not alone in not having real life friends. I have no one to talk to either. My sister lives less than a mile away & i havent seen nor heard from her sense March?? Damn, thats along time.

Ive quit the church thing, actually got no support there.

Just remember, i love ya
Cathy

you seem like you dont want online friends...
i have never heard of this face to face person.
. . .

dont obsess about the negative.
some people just have trouble with stuff.
like sex and me...
i could obsess about it...
but thatll only make it harder to get.
you have to focus on other things...
then itll come.

connect the dots, and if where your starting isnt working, try another dot thatll lead you back. in the end itll all connect.

Your not a piece of crap failure, your friend was an ass and everyone is having trouble with employment today. I know it doesn't help pay the bills, but quit beating yourself up.