I am sorry if this ends up being long. So here it goes. You know most people would look at me and tell me I need to be thankful for what I have in life. I am married to a caring, loving, and funny husband who is the Father of my two boys. We both have decent jobs and live in a house in a good neighborhood. But I do not feel content and I dont know what in the world is wrong with me. I feel like I look around at alot of people and envy their life and wish things were different for me. I lost my dad to cancer in March of 2012 and ever since than I feel life is more stressful. His side of the family barely speaks to us anymore including my sister and mom. We did nothing wrong. Its almost like my Father's death was an excuse to write us off. Ever since I was little there was always issues here and there with that side of the family and when I would ask my parents about it they did not say much. I am not as close to my sister and mom and will go days without talking to them. I feel like everytime we talk there is nothing but negativity. We all complain about money. My sister is a stay at home mom with three kids and nine times out of ten when you go over to her house or talk to her on the phone she seems so stressed out. She is always straightening up her house and never sits down to just relax. My mom is a wonderful cook but whenever we have family gatherings she is always in the kitchen because she is cooking and than gets upset if my sister and I are not helping her. Both my sister and I have a total of 5 kids all 6 years and under so we have to constantly chase after them. I have been trying to plan a vacation this Summer but my mom and sister say they may not have the funds. My husbands side lives in another state but they hardly ever come down and visit and they dont have a lot of money either. So basically there is no point in planning vacations with family. I have two friends I asked about getting a beach house for the Summer and one friend said they did not have the money (suprise suprise) and the other one has to start an expensive medication so that falls back to not having money. So when I scroll through facebook and see all these people at the beach, out of the county, etc for their vacation, yes I get jealous. I am supposed to start school in two weeks to work on my BSN so thats going to add to my anxiety. I work rotating shifts at the hospital. ( I am in L&D nurse). So this is why i joined a support group. Am I crazy? What is wrong with me?