One problem that I have is anxiety. Sometimes it is intense. It is hard to get things off of my mind, and they go in circles.

I don't know if that is what the problem is, it probably could be, but I don't know why I got really fixated on this guy and I just don't know why. I don't know what is fueling it, but it bothers me. I have not really ever had this problem. I did once as a kid/teenager, but not as an adult. So I don't understand it. I guess I feel fearful inside. It is a very immature way of coping, or lack of coping, but I cry a lot about it. I play over and over in my head how I feel like he put me off or blew me off. I am not sure how this started, but I feel like I want to withdraw further and further into myself, it is the strangest thing. I just remember looking at him one time, and him just seeming to glare and me and turn away and I felt truly horrible. I don't know what my deal is, because this is really not that big of an issue. I thought he was my friend and that I connected with him, and I felt comfortable talking to him. I was never in a relationship with him, so there is no reason for this, but I feel like my heart was pulverized and sliced in half. Sometimes I felt like I have a knife inside of me, that it's invisible, and that it's cutting me no matter which way I move and it gets hard to breathe.