I am very high angizity ...right now ......me and my siblings ..have this ..group that we go to to talk about my dad so he can't see what we say ...so we can organize ..when we visit him ..so we don't all end up ther at the same time ..........tonight ....they ...talked about ...him seeing a new doctor ....and this new doctor ...found so thing his doctor did not ....................I was the one that went with my dad to his last doctors appointment .....and that doctor .....realy pissed me off .......I asked him one question my dad wanted answered ..and he would not answer ..my dad ....and than he raised his voice to my dad ...so I raised my voice .to the same leavel to him ...my dad complained of his throught bothering him ..that doctor just told him to we are ..soft louse clothing ...he would not even look down his throat .....and ..when he was suposto be answering our question he ..told us this big story about how this system worked of witch we already knew ....and simply did not answer my dads question ....I stepped in when he got my dad upset .....and that was when he raised his voice to my dad ....that was not nessery ...to me that was nothing but a ice ....and than .after I raised my voice and dident back dowen he lowered his voice and looked at my dad and told him he knew that he was in a hard place ..but that he realy did care about him .....but this did not ring true to me it sounded mor like a show for me than ....and attempt to make my dad feel better ...............so ......that is basicly what I said ..but I went into more detail ....and used stronger words not swearing ...just ...strongest wording I wanted ..what I was saying .....to not be misunderstood ...because ...they had said that..the new doctor had said that he schould see his doctor ..for continuity ....and that is what triggered me .....and I said how can you possibly have any kind of continuity ....when ..the conversation only went one way ..............and after I was finished that I was worried that my sister ..that was looking after him might take it ..the wrong way ..so I told her it had nothing to do with her ....and just told her ......we were blessed to have her to look after our dad ....because ...she is the most loving giving selfless honest person I have the privilege to have in my life ................................but ..for some reason I am left with all this angizity I am. afraid .of what they will say ..or am I just feeling ..what I felt when I saw that doctor with my dad .....I am confused ...did I realy need to tell them that it seamed I did ..I wanted it on record ...that what my dad said about that doctor was in fact true .............and he doesent want to see him any more ......the new doctor found by looking dowen his throat that his .thiriod gland is swollen ...and is sending him for blood tests .........that other doctor is happy to take his insurance money ..but can't be bothered to look dowen his throat .....and raises his voice at him ....that is abuce ....do you think that is abuce .....I need to calm dowen ..take care every one ..God bless