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What if?

CJAngel
CJAngel
What if I wake up one day and forget about all the people who love me? What if that's not enough to hold me up anymore? My thoughts slip more and more everyday. I don't know how much longer I can live with this pain.

My sister notices something is different. But she doesn't say a word. Not to me. Not to our mother. I give up drinking. At least, when I'm sober, I can control my emotions. Ended up crying in my mothers arms Christmas night. I told her about one of the things bothering me. But I told her nothing else. She thinks it's the alcohol that brought this out of me when in truth, the alcohol just made me talk about it.

My sister and I go back to school in a week. I've been contemplating for some time, and I think it's time I move out. I share a house with my sister, my girlfriend and some friends. But everything changed when I came back home last summer. I don't feel I belong there anymore. When I get back to school, I'll talk to my RHC. I feel they'll be better off without me.
deleted_user
deleted_user
It sure sounds like you need some help. Can you talk to your sister or girlfriend about your troubles?
ScaredandScarred
ScaredandScarred
Do you have anyone you can talk to about all of this?
Maybe your sister doesn't know how to bring it up, can you open up to her?
xx
JustShootMeNow
JustShootMeNow
You need to find a good therapist now! You say you are in school? Is there a counselor you can speak to at school? Don't give up on yourself. Find some help.

Do you know that there is nothing in your life that can't be fixed? As bad as it seems right now, IT CAN BE FIXED! Get the help you need, and I promise you will find out that it can all be fixed.

However, removing yourself from this life CANNOT be fixed. It can't be fixed for you, and it can't be fixed for the people who love you. It will be the people who love you who suffer the most. They will suffer for the rest of their lives. Can you do that to them?
gramybear
gramybear
Are you speaking with a therapist about your feelings and fears? Believe it or not, that happened to a couple who got in an accident and the husband forgot everyone, including his wife, but love prevailed. I believe it always does for the most part.
Do you KNOW you don't belong there anymore, or do you just feel like it? Who is trying to tell you that you don't? Is the devil busy sitting on your shoulder talking to you and convincing you that you don't deserve to be happy and to be around people who make you happy? And no, I don't think anyone is going to be better off without you.. Hugs GB
CJAngel
CJAngel
I can't afford therapy. No one has told me I should leave but ever since I was discharged, I've felt as though people were treating me different. Like I'm fragile glass. I love my girlfriend. Its taken me a while to see that. But even she treats me differently. I have never been the kind of person who opens up to people about my thoughts. I don't like other people having to worry about me. It must be a flaw of growing up the way I had to.
gramybear
gramybear
They are probably treating you like glass because you feel that they are. And if they are, it's out of concern and love. Otherwise they wouldn't give a darn and wouldn't treat you one way or another. How long has your partner known about how you feel and what you are going through? Have you sat down together and really communicated what is going on with both of you? Not just talking, but communicating. There is a big difference. You are wrong about people being better off with out you. Please don't think that way and when you do, it's so important that you have someone to talk to about it. Hopefully your partner, your parents or hopefully down the road, a therapist. Going back to school will keep your mind busy on other things and I really hope that helps. But please don't forget to communicate with all of those people that you love, and LOVE YOU!!!! Hugs GB
reddog201
reddog201
that is sad. i understand what you mean though. i have often thought very simmiliar things and still do. quite often i have a overwelming fear that i am going to loose all my friends here on ds. these are the only friends i have in life. what happened was once a while back ds ppl closed my account with out any warning. i have no idea why? i tried several times to get answers as to why they did this but never got 1 single reply. i tried to remember all my friends i lost and found most of them but not all. maybe im overreacting idk . but i do understand how it feels.