I'm sorry that your having such a difficult day. I can get very tired of my depression as well. I'm here for you if you ever need to talk to someone. Hang in there!

Thanks I appreciate it. I'm lying in bed and I don't have the energy to do anything. va put me in this program, and they're not doing much for my depression let alone even know I'm depressed. I keep trying to get stuff done and they just keep blowing me off. Sooner or later something will happen.

what is va ........often people ..will not know you are depressed because they will put you under other ...catorgeries ....like being lazy ...or not wanting to work ..etc ...because they have never them selves gone throught depreshion so they have no idea what we are going through ...they can't even imagin what we go through ...so it can be very hard to get any ..kind of ..help ..with out a phicatrist to back us up ............and ..when trying to get help like disability ....you are always turned dowen the first time ...you have to realy fight for it .....and that can take years ......so I am not sure what this va is I have an idea ..but not sure so I will let you tell me .....I will keep you in my prayers ....I know ..it is hard to get your self out of your room ...but the longer you stay in there and in your home the harder it will be to get out ...so you need to push your self ...I know I have been there ....I could not go out ..i had to have my curtain closed ...I would not even answer the phone ......it took .me years to get my self back out ...and be comfortable ...or at least not have to run back in ...........I am just woundering .......is the women you love ..is she treating you bad because ..of how you are behaving and she doesent understand ....what I am trying to ask is ...the broblem that she does not understand what depreshion is and what you are going through ....because I had to take my husband a number of times to my phicitrist to get him educated on my depreshion and what he was doing that was helping and what he was doing that was not helping .....that was very important .....I am woundering if that could help you in your relationship .......I will keep you in my prayer ....God bless

The VA is the Veterans Administration. I was in the Navy

no she understands because she's bipolar too. I lied to her about stuff about my past because I was ashamed of it. Ive apologize for 6 months
since we broke up and since I was hospitalized. all she can do is throw my past in my face. you would think for somebody who has bipolar and is a nurse they would have more compassion especially since I was with her for 2 years

I thought that is what the va was ....are you from the US ...I am from Canada ....and our veterans are treated terable by our government .....especualy after they have given so much .......I am honered to meet you ......can't spell ..though ..lol .....I am sorry to here ..about .the way .she is treating you ...and she schould be able better than others to understand ..your bepreshion .....and not talking ....about your past ...that's what we do we keep things inside ...and they only hurt us more the longer we keep them in .....they have to come out sooner or later ....so you have to think of your self now .....here ....vetrines ..have tried and tried for years ..to get the help they need .....we are having an election soon and that is something that people are looking at ...when they are casting there votes ......who will give the vetrines the help they need and the respect they deserve ......I live one day at a time ....and each new day is a new bigining ....let the past fall in the past ware it belongs ..after you get it all out ....and fight this depreshion ....it is good that you are her in here you will not be judged ...and you will be understood .......I will keep you in my prayers ...God bless you

Yeah...I'm from Texas and I moved up to Cincinnati Ohio for her last year