Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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keepitsimple39 11/22/2011

so in a couple of days it will be another holiday without my kids mother who killed herself almost 3 years ago. also i dont have our kids either, they were taken and adopted out by social services. seeing all the people at the mall and the stores with happy smiles, couples holding hands. all of these events whether they happened today or years ago, when this time of year comes around i am in a depressed mess. what makes it even worse this year is, i cant even drink or do drugs anymore because of health issues. so even more depressed, so i guess ill be sleeping the day away all alone. i dont have anywhere to go, so i guess thats the most rational idea to go with. i dont want to be around people laughing and yucking it up. i dont want to be around families along with their loved ones, sights like that really make me wanna put a bullet in my brain. if i only had the resources to find one.

WallyBear 11/22/2011

Awww, I am so sorry that you are in so much pain.

Hurting yourself is never the answer.

Maybe it would help you to help others this time of year :-) :-)

You could volunteer at a food bank.
We help ourselves when we help others :-) :-)

And Christmastime is a wonderful time to buy toys for the
Toys For Tots Campaign :-)

That is something that I just LOVE to do!!!

Much healing to you.

deleted_user 11/22/2011

awww i am soo sorry for your pain. I wish I knew some way to make it all better and take away the hurt and get you at least visitation rights for your kids. I know social service doesn't work that way but it would be nice if you could still see them on occasion I think. Big hugs!! if you ever want to talk to anyone feel free to message me!

keepitsimple39 11/22/2011

sometimes i feel as if i am being punished for all the things i did as a younger man. i wasnt always a good person i was mean to people at times, arrogant towards them as well. i really dont understand why all of this happened to me, i wish i had a local support system. someone to at least talk too from time to time, but i get scared talking to a mental health professional. if i mention the word suicide its like they automatically send people inpatient. some of us just talk about it, but dont really mean to do it. i mean how many people have been sad and have said, i wish i was dead. i dont know what to do anymore

deleted_user 11/22/2011

I am so sorry to hear this. I would never want you to do that, i couldnt imagine being in your shoes, but you can help other people, just because you made a mistake or two in the past doesnt mean you give up. You were put on this eearth for a purpose. Turn this around, you have enough strenght to do so. You have amazing peoople on here who are here for you. dust yourself off your not a bad person, you are human. you aare allowed to make mistakes!

keepitsimple39 11/22/2011

i guess my only solution is to try and get into a program or something. i know a lot of people have said, give of yourself, i just dont want to. call me selfish if you want but i also suffer from social phobia so i dont want to be around people. since sally has passed on i have kept to myself, only time i ever left here was to get food or goto a bar once in a while. i hate people, i dont want to be around them, i like being here alone. maybe this is my destiny, being alone forever

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