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Help_me_Jesus 10/19/2017

Below are some of the feelings I have been experiencing for the past couple of years. Can anyone relate?

I feel like I am dead. I feel like my spirit is dead. I feel like I'm living in a different reality or another realm. (I spend my days doing whatever I can to distract me from my misery...but in the end nothing seems to help). I feel like there is a curse on me. (No matter what I do (like take medication) or don't do (like quit smoking weed), everything just fails, nothing seems to work). I feel like I am in a deep sleep and one day I'll wake up and I'll realize this was just a dream. (I live in a state of confusion. I have no friends, no relationships, and no purpose). I'm not sure why but it feels like I'm having to pay for my karma. (As if I have to pay for whatever bad I have done in the past). I feel like a bunch of body parts that don't function together, (like I am a giant mess of a person). I don't know if this is depression or something worse. All I want is to feel whole again.

Zizith 10/19/2017

Check anxiety, this may be a form of derealization and that can be tough trust me.

And if you ever need anyone to talk to I am here for you.

SarcasmANDscifi 10/19/2017

You just described how Ive been feeling to a tee. Wow. I have been feeling so alone. Im here for you

euniceps 10/20/2017

I can feel your frustration with life; however, you can help yourself perhaps by medication and counseling by an understanding mental-health professional. Also please don’t overlook your spiritual needs: Pour out your heart to God in prayer, 'the peace from God' can help calm you. Philippians 4:6,7

SilentlySuicidal 10/20/2017

I can relate to how you're feeling. It feels insane...

Lilly23 10/20/2017

I too can relate to this post and have felt this way and experienced literally my whole life. I am beyond miserable and unfortunately for me.... jesus and God have not helped me....

Lilly23 10/20/2017

Has this been going on two years? Did something happen to cause this or you just don't know? Been going thru it for 3 decades myself.

Help_me_Jesus 10/20/2017

Lilly23 I'm not sure if you will see this reply, but yes it's been almost 2 years that I have had these feelings. I have felt like my soul was gone, I went through months just recently, convinced I was the Devil. Now, I'm just taking moment by moment and just don't know what to believe.

TrappedinMaya 10/22/2017

It could be the effect of weed, it alters our mind, right? Or it could be our guilt feelings about the things that we've done in our life, which when we play over and over in our mind drives us crazy, with or without weed. It can also be karma if that's part of your belief. It can be many things but whatever is the cause, if you think you have stopped this causes such as quitting mj and stuff, try to focus now on what you should do next to change your situation. Whatever we give up needs to be replaced with something. You can't just quit and do nothing, that's when crazy things come to us, even the devil if you also believe in that. So, after releasing the negative, replace it with the positive, so that there will be no room for the things that we don't want in our life anymore. It is much easier and faster to destroy than to build, but try to gather some determination, and slowly you can find yourself again. Good luck and May God guide you on your way.

Lilly23 10/23/2017

@Help_me_Jesus
Yes, taking it moment by moment is good. Maybe there will be bad days but also good or somewhat better ones. So you ARE still taking meds? Have you thought about having them adjusted? Not just increased or added to but maybe a decrease... it could be too much. I personally felt worse on meds and it took me a LONG time to get that resolved for different reasons. My body is really sensitive to that stuff. Are you in therapy?

I also understand not knowing what to believe. I lost my faith of 20 sum years a couple years ago...I won't go into that now but letting you I can relate...

Help_me_Jesus 10/24/2017

Lilly23
I'm still on meds. My doctor actually increased one of them about a month ago, and changed one of them. I'm having feelings of not wanting to be on them, but at the same time scared I might be worse than where I am now. I'm still trying to get a therapist.

Lilly23 10/26/2017

@Help_me_Jesus
OK. It might just take some time to sort through everything you're going thru. I hope counseling will be helpful for you.

Lilly23 10/29/2017

@Cosmocat84

So true! I super agree

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