there is a lot of talk of death here .. unfortunately. There is a lot of talk about how hard life is to live.

I am no expert .. by any means .. but often we make a lot of our lives hard. Sure .. bad things happen .. but add to that .. guilt, anger, low self esteem, .. no love for one's self, and we make our lives much worse than they need to be.

You say you are tired of living. I am assuming that is because there is no or not enough happiness in your life ... I GUESS.

It took me many, many years to realize exactly where happiness comes from. I looked for it and expected it to come from so many things ... all of which eventually became disappointments. I got to the point were I had no happiness .. could not find it .. anywhere.

Then .. I either finally got old enough or .. uhh .. dunno .. but I finally figured out what it is and where to find it. I am now never without it and am extremely grateful to have a life. It is the greatest thing that has ever happened ... even with all the bad .. and there was PLENTY of that and.. a lot of it ... I created.

When I quit creating my unhappiness .. and learned what it is and where to get it ... life became entirely worthwhile ... cherished .. in fact.

If you can love yourself .. more than anything else in the world .. you will find some happiness .... and that can grow .. fast. When you are happy, you can give it to others ... which increases your own. It is something that once you know 'how it works' .. it exponentially enlarges. It is 'in there'. Wake it up .. discover it .. be EXTREMELY kind to yourself .. more than anyone else is. Feel GOOD .. about yourself ... and that goodness will expand .. into your whole life.

I know how you feel. I wake up at times wanting out from life because my sadness and sensitivity just become too overwhelming to deal with. But, I always opt to just deal with it. I know deep inside that my life is precious and worth living. I know that amongst all the sadness and evil around the world, something genuinely good exists. There may be many things in this life that I can't commit to due to my depression but I can say that I've been committed to myself in wanting to find that sense of happiness. I'm almost certain that you can say the same about yourself. Hold on until you find the many reasons that are out there for you to know that this life is worth living. Best wishes!

I've been there...you think, is this all there is? I used to view my life as full of possibilities, and, as I got older and became less able physically ( or it takes more effort to be as able physically) and the world seems so small, overcrowded and full of misery, it gets harder to cope. Sometimes it seems like the loss column is much longer than the gain column...but it isn't! Start by being grateful for all the wonder and joy of your life. You can see, hear, type on the computer, read, write, etc. Watch the moon, the stars, even the snow! Take a walk. Watch a child discover something. I probably sound goofy. TURN OFF THE TV, especially cable news with their constant yammering anger. Try to learn something new.

I feel just like that. I can't kill myself, but I also don't cate if I ever wake up in the morning. When I do wake up, I struggle to go back to sleep, but usually I'm unsuccessfull. This comes from by belief that there is nothing good in store for me in the future. I know that I need to remove these negative thoughts, but that is easier said than done.

Good luck my friend.

Thanks guys, it's easier when you know your not alone.

I don't have everything a guy could want.....I am single...No Job.. No Income...Piss poor Medical...No Meds.....No fucking Life....Never had a wife or kids of my own....Ya...MY LIFE FUCKING SUCKS...and I wonder why I am so fucking depressed all the time...

Sorry your having such a hard time. I haven't always been depressed, I built a life before getting this way. I have a successful business but I didn't have anything before 2002. I started working at a hvac company at 3.35 per hour in 1988 and learned all I could about repairing central units. I know not having money is hard and i feel for you but you shouldn't be upset with me because of your circumstances. I just need help like any one else.

My depression kicks me around pretty hard at times but when I come here and give hugs and encouragement I chase the depression away and just feel better. Together we can make life better -- one step at a time. ((hugs)) Patricia

I have lived so much of my life depressed and feelin just as you are most of the time. I plan on working with my therapist on cognitive behavior therapy that is suppose to help us think differently and actually change the brain in its responses. You might also be interested in a book called "The Stress Answer" by Frank Lawlis. Both make sense to me and I am willing to try anything at this point. I feel your pain. We care about you. Keep comingback for support. It has helped me just to read post and the replies.

Hey coolreg214,

I think I know how you kind of feel. Reading your comment on reply #7 it sounds like you have been working hard to get what you want. I've done the same thing, I don't own a business but I do have a decent job, wife, children, home, etc....and I too get tired.

I read something once that made sense to me. it said "it's like climbing from one peak to the next and not taking the time to savor and enjoy what you have accomplished." So nothing ever seems satisfying, and that is exhausting!!

Don't know if this is the same tired feeling but hopefully it helps.

coolreg214, I get very depressed may days when I realize the sun came up and i'm still alive. People don't understand it- people without severe depression but I do. I don't understand the WHY's of it but I understand what you're feeling..cause alot of us do. Tht's why they call it depression and it can debilitate a person. Hang in there man and stay with us here cause we know how you feel.. and 1Patriccan said it well ... we need each other . We come here depressed and always know there is somone who needs an attaboy or some words of encouragement - we give it cause weknow WE need i also. Tkae care and kep us posted.. feather

LDF1 I think you hit it right on the head. I'm always running against the wind. I never delligate. I've got to work on that. I feel like if I'm not doing it,it's not being done right. I thank all of you for the help and kindness in my time of need. I feel much better now. your a very special group of people whether you realize it or not