Yeah, killing myself isn't as easy as one might think, I have no pills, no gun, how would I do it? Jump off a freeway overpass? I will have to think of a way. I've thought about strangling myself by tying something around my neck very tightly, I tried it once and couldn't bring myself to tie the final knot, so I just waited till it felt like blood vessels were bursting in my eyes and my head was gonna explode and then I let go. It would be a very painful way to die, but something has to end this torment I live in.

Would you please go to the ER? You could have pneumonia or Bronchitis in which case you need antibiotics. Even if you don't have insurance, the ER has to accept you. I'm worried about your health.
Hugs GB

I'm still getting calls from bill collectors about the bill I owe from a year and a half ago in the ER. They want a thousand dollars for my one night stay. Thanks for caring Gramybear., but I don't care if I have bronchitis or anything else, I wish I was dead.

Surviving in that heat is beyond stressful:(:( I'm surprised you've made it this long without ending up in the hospital.

That ER can bill you all they want, they'd still have to give you something to stabilize you.
I very much understand where you're coming from but going out that way would be ever so painful!!! Still no guarantee it would work or that someone wouldn't find you and call 911 anyway.

How did you make out with that church you were going to talk to?
If they said no, did you try others? I have to believe that one church or another would have resources to help you through this.

Let me know if I can help in any way.....it wouldn't be an imposition!!

I will NEVER give up on you heretic. I'm really sorry that a hospital can be so insensitive, but that is politics. I hope you start feeling better soon and the heat lets up for you. It's been in the triple digits here too so I know how badly you are suffering. I am here for you, okay? Hugs GB

Some cheap cold remedies.

Have you considered driving to a cooler place? It's going to stay really hot for two more months. The 100's are too much.

Get well soon.

Raw Garlic. As soon as I start to feel a cold coming on I chop up a few cloves of raw garlic and swallow it. This works best if you do it several times until you feel the cold going away. Garlic has very strong anti-bacterial, anti-viral and anti-fungal properties. It also boost your immune system among many other things. Not to mention this remedy cost cents and really works. It's a little spicy going down, but worth it!

Raw Ginger - this is another really potent food remedy for colds. Even spicier than garlic so it may be hard to swallow. A great way to ingest it is through making your own ginger tea. Finely chop a few tablespoon of ginger and add to your hot water to make ginger tea. After steeping for a bit, strain the tea and add raw honey to balance out the spicy ginger. It will feel great on your throat and help fight that cold. You can also buy quality ginger tea if you don't want to mess with it raw.

Raw Honey - honey is very soothing to the sore throat and has natural antibiotic properties. It also contains vitamins and minerals to help you heal faster. This mom uses honey mixed with cinnamon for her children's colds. If there is one remedy my children will readily take its raw honey, they love it!

Apple Cider Vinegar and Raw Honey

Raw Apple Cider Vinegar - last but certainly not least, this is my favorite remedy! Apple Cider Vinegar is considered the cure all remedy. It's the best I tell you! You can read all about the uses here. For our coughs and colds this remedy has been the best. I can mix it with raw honey and water and my children will drink it happily. I cannot praise it enough. In the winter we are going to take it daily to keep the colds away before they even come around.

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