I have really been missing the life I had with my ex lately. I had friends then. I don't have any friends left now. The friends I had then went with him when I left him. I lost the only friend I hada while back. That friend totally abandoned me when she found out I was cutting myself. Your suppose to help your friends during their most troubled times, not abandon them when they need you the most. I don't know what to do with myself now. I feel so worthless. I need a good close friend. Someone I can count on and trust. I feel like my life isn't even worth the trouble any more. I am trying so hard to be happy again. I was doing ok until I saw a picture of my ex on facebook yesterday. I was missing the good part of the life I had with him. So, I looked him up on facebook. I saw a picture of him with another woman. I think he may be remarried with her. I was married to him and he found another woman so fast. I miss the good times with him. I miss actually smiling for a change and spending time with our friends. Now I am left with nothing. I left him for a reason and I just have to try and remember why. As soon as I saw his picture online, my heart started to burn. It fealt broken. Now I don't know what to do. I need a good friend.