Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I am so terrified about what will happen next in my life. I found out not too long ago that i'm pre-diabetic and have something called fatty liver disease. Plus, I had to have my gallbladder taken out. My health has gone down hill. I am at a loss. I have major depression and schizzoaffective disorder, plus a bunch of other miscellaneous health problems. Living on a day-to-day basis can be quite hard for me. Sometimes I just don't know what to do next. I am always so sad and depressed. Tonight I found myself being so upset that my stomach was in knots. I ended up having to call one of those 24-hour help lines. I needed to talk to someone. I was talking her ear off for like 45 minutes at least. It was nice to vent, but .... how will I feel next? What about tomorrow? I felt better at first, but i'm already starting to get sad again and that call was less than 30 minutes ago. Living has become so hard for me. It is so hard to explain that to my parents. I try to tell them how I feel and they just try to have some sort of magical fix for it. It's like when a woman tries to tell a man something. He just keeps trying to fix the problem when what we really need is a good listener. Sure we want our problems to end and we want them fixed, but sometimes just having a good listener can help us feel at least a little better. When I talk to my parents I find myself getting frustrated because it's like talking to a wall. It goes nowhere. My parents are pretty much all I have left. I don't have any friends anymore. It's pretty much down to just me and my cat. I am always so lonely.
I started exercising again lately a snap fitness. It feels good to exercise and it's a nice distraction from my crazy thoughts. But after that, i'm back to square one and am all sad, depressed and alone again.
I don't know what will happen next for me....and that terrifies me. My life truly sucks right now. I wonder sometimes if my health will ever actually improve or if i'll end up adding another health condition to my already never ending list. It is already rediculous enough.
I see a counselor once every 2 weeks. Clearly that's not enough. Plus I see my psych for meds.
I was once hospitalized for suicidal watch a while back. Who knows how long ago because I'm terrible at judging dates...hell....I am terrible at remember a lot of things. I have a bad memory. I really just don't know what to do next. Half the times I just sit around watching tv, knitting, and going on the internet. That's why I started up with snap fitness again. I really hope it helps at least a little bit. I am on anti-depressants. I have had trouble for years on getting the right ones. I finally figured out the one, but am still struggling at finding the last right one. I keep on having so many side effects. I have tried pretty much everything on the market. I really hope this new one eventually starts to work and that I don't have any side effects....but what to do in the mean time?
I started exercising again lately a snap fitness. It feels good to exercise and it's a nice distraction from my crazy thoughts. But after that, i'm back to square one and am all sad, depressed and alone again.
I don't know what will happen next for me....and that terrifies me. My life truly sucks right now. I wonder sometimes if my health will ever actually improve or if i'll end up adding another health condition to my already never ending list. It is already rediculous enough.
I see a counselor once every 2 weeks. Clearly that's not enough. Plus I see my psych for meds.
I was once hospitalized for suicidal watch a while back. Who knows how long ago because I'm terrible at judging dates...hell....I am terrible at remember a lot of things. I have a bad memory. I really just don't know what to do next. Half the times I just sit around watching tv, knitting, and going on the internet. That's why I started up with snap fitness again. I really hope it helps at least a little bit. I am on anti-depressants. I have had trouble for years on getting the right ones. I finally figured out the one, but am still struggling at finding the last right one. I keep on having so many side effects. I have tried pretty much everything on the market. I really hope this new one eventually starts to work and that I don't have any side effects....but what to do in the mean time?
Any chance you could see the counselor every week? Are there any depression type support groups in your area or close by?
Perhaps volunteer with some community group? That would get you around other people and give you a chance to make new
friends as well.
Virtually every med I've taken(AD's) has caused nasty side effects so I have to rely on myself and playing with my dog to get through things...sometimes easier said than done though.
I'm glad the excercise gives you a break from your thoughts. Having major medical issues is problematic enough, I know, I have some my own self.
Meds can only do so much though, they can help with symptoms but aren't a "magic bullet".
Your memory can be affected by the stress of your illnesses as well as your depression.
Please try not to get into your "tomorrows" while you're in "today"...take things one at a time instead of trying to figure out what may or may not be in the future.
The only thing you have is today, if excercise helps, do you have any kind of other interest, like books, movies, hobbies, that you can also use?
Maybe just take a walk/sit outside and actually look at nature....sometimes that alone is very calming.....look with your heart, not just your eyes, you may very well be surprised at the wonder that Mother Nature provides.
There are no "easy" answers, if I knew any, I'd gladly share with you!!
I tried volunteering, but it't almost too hard, besides that partcular place didn't really need me. All my conditions are rather disabling. I am disabled so I have been able to work in quite some time. Actually, i've had 30+ jobs in my life and I am only 29. What happens is, I try really hard to work, then I find I just can't handle it, then I quite. Which then lead to me eventually trying again and again. I gave up a while back. I just can't work or even volunteer. I can't handle the smallest amount of pressure. I just lose it.