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trayanne76
trayanne76
It's been awhile since I posted. I don't want to be here anymore. Still, no one helps me financially, cleaning wise, shopping, nothing. I get used. Just used by my brother. No one gives a damn. My father who has the means to help me, will not. My Momo passed 5 years ago. She was my best friend, and shes gone. I want to be with her. I just get used, the man I like doesn't like me, and why would he? Im a mess. Im overweight, who wwants that? No one. I am mad at my family for not even a phone call on Moms anniversary to see how I am. I am mad at my thereapist who when I called and said I wasn't coming back, didn't even call me to say anything. I reached out, and have been denied. I told my father if I get pushed anymore I am ready to slit my throat. He took it as being depressed, and "Don't say things like that." F*** you dont say things like that. Why shouldnt I say things like that? Its my life, I HATE it and it should be MY decision to end it if I want to. I miss my Mom, I want to be with her. I dont care about anything or anyone else. I want to go home.
sunnycat
sunnycat
Sounds like you really have a lot going on- just take small, positive steps towards happiness- stay away from those who affect your life in negative ways.
(((((big hugs)))))
acousticlunch
acousticlunch
I'm sorry you're going through this....words can't make it all better but changing your thinking can, if you can do that....maybe you could find a new therapist? Please don't hurt yourself, call the crisis line and talk with someone, you could at least just give it a shot

I hope you're treated better and you feel better soon
deleted_user
deleted_user
I want to be with my mom too...she has been gone for almost 3 years now...why do we have to stay when their life ends? Wish I had my grandmother back here too...I miss her.....what's the point.
trayanne76
trayanne76
went to therapy, didn't really help me. Now I am just cold. No heat or hot water from the storm. I hate this...
deleted_user
deleted_user
can you go somewhere like a friends house or somewhere you can get a hot shower and something hot to eat or drink?
trayanne76
trayanne76
I could, but i really dont feel comfortable. I dont know, just want things back to normal. I dont do well with power outages and all this. Makes me scared.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I'm a long way from being an authority so I can only tell you what works for me. Every day I think about suicide. Every day I can think of someone that would be hurt. Every day I promise myself, "not today". Sometimes I can even get up to "not this week". For me its kinda like quitting smoking...all I need to do is to make it through THIS craving. I lost my wife and the love of my life nearly 10 years ago. She was 46. I want to be with her, so I understand your desire to be with your mother. My own belief is that the (our lost ones) can wait easier than anyone. Actually it is my lost love that is sometimes my reason for not commiting suicide. She would be disappointed in me. I could never stand that. I feel for you and I hope that you find a level of peace that you can live with. Oh, and any person that cares about another person's weight is a shallow and unworthy individual. To me it is as insignificant as skin or eye color. You are obviously a sensitive and caring soul. Please take care of yourself.