Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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trayanne76 04/16/2012

I am sorry but I am F****** done. I lend my car to my brother, my money to pay the bills, my house for people to live in with no HELP. I AM DONE. I WISH I DO NOT WAKE UP IN THE MORNING BECAUSW NO ONE CARES ABOUT MY SANITY. SO PLEASE IF THERE IS A GOD, TAKE ME AWAY, GIVE ME A HEART ATTACK, DO WHATEVER. BECAUSE I PRAY AND PRAY AND GET NO HELP!!!!!!!
OH, and i cant afford my meds bc i am paying a mortgage, electric, oil, car, gas, food, my yself.SO, i shall now go to bed and pray yet again for help that is not going to come. My prayers were not answered when Mom was sick, when my step-brother was sick, and to help with my brother, to show me the way out of sepression, and NO ANSWER!!!!!!!!!

im so sorry for the caps, just mad, very angry

trayanne76 04/16/2012

I am calmer now. Had to get that out. Im sorry, thought of deleting my post but why should I , thats how I feel. But when you want to yell, this is the only place I can do it becasue i feel so alone

deleted_user 04/16/2012

I understand the feeling of anger, frustration, hopelessness, and despair. You don't need to apologize for your emotions. You have the right to feel them. Oh how I wish I could give you some miracle response to your prayers. And so, I understand the feeling of helplessness too. There's nothing I can offer you but my compassion, my understanding, my sympathy, and hopefully my comfort. Just keep channeling those emotions, whether it be on this site, in a journal, outside for a walk/run, meditation, anything that releases you from the overwhelming feelings you have. Breathe. And don't give up praying. I'll pray with you.

Roxie

trayanne76 04/16/2012

thank you very much. i am going to watch some tv and play computer games, and try to rest

SingforLife 04/16/2012

I don't know how to answer many of your questions, but I am so sorry for your pain and hopelessness. I think we've all been there, so one thing I can say is that you are most definitely NOT alone. I know how you feel, and I am willing to help you.

Another thing I can say, is that God WILL help you. You are having a trial, and He wants to see if you are strong enough to pull through it. You need to remain having faith in Him, and He will help you. You can't expect it to be handed right to you. You have to have persistence to keep trying and trying until you recieve help. But I promise you, from the bottom of my heart, that if you keep trying, with a good attitude towards God, He WILL help you.

STAY STRONG.

deleted_user 04/16/2012

I know what its like not being able to afford your meds so I have some suggestions. My hospital has a drug program for people who can't afford their meds, if you contact the medication distributers they sometimes give you free meds and sometimes my docs have samples. These ways may help. You can look up the numbers for your drug companies and call them to see if you qualify. hope things work out for you

lizaradley 04/17/2012

Don't delete it, I'm glad you got all of that out. It sounds like you have a lot on your plate!

It sounds like you invest a lot of time into others but aren't getting a lot back. They expect things from you because you don't make them work for it. Please put yourself first Trayanne. If people are taking advantage of you, you should stand up for yourself even if they are family!

Hugs to you!!

trayanne76 04/17/2012

I am going towork soon, going to wear make up and maybe feel better. I will not be on tongiht , I am working late, so I didn't want to frighten anyone, I will be too tired when I get home to come on and chat. Hope its an easy day

deleted_user 04/17/2012

Attempt at light humor here... it was very hard to read that with spongebob staring at me with that grin :)

I understand the pain. Oh god, I really do. Even though she picks up after herself, it seems like my girlfriend is destroying my home (she picks up after the drinking). Place is almost always a mess. My money is being spent like water, it seems. mostly on beer. My kids complain about her. I'm about ready to throw in the towel! Luckily, she moves out in a couple of weeks. just trying to keep the peace until then...

trayanne76 04/17/2012

that spongebob comment made my day, LOL LOL, thank you

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