doing puzzles is awesome, it keeps you busy and works your brain. i'm sure that will lead to doing other things that will at least get you thru the day or even make you happy. being tired and having no energy is by big downfall also. i annoyingly try to ask people to do things just to get me out of the house. have you been to the movies lately with anyone? how about starting off slow and renting a movie and having someone over to watch it with and eat popcorn. being around people will give you energy and keep you from sleeping.

I rented a movie yesterday and am goiing to watch it today. no one is around cause they are at work, but I thought of putting it on, Ive seen it 3 times already, and doing some cleaning. Maybe opening the windows and cleaning will get me going. Maybe painting a room over and spriing cleaning. I dont know, I feel like i was irresponsible for leaving work, but i saved enough to get me through til i find something else so i should be ok. It was going so bad and they know about my issues, which makes me uncomfortable. They dont want me there anymore and I dont like them. Working with all women is hard, i prefer to work for men, go figure. I dont know why but it was always easier. Women can be very cady when all togethe in one tiny office

tell me about girl, i work with all women also and most ar 55yo plus so we don't have much in common. they are very clickish too, which drives me nuts, whispering in the corner or doing shit that excludes others. i would much rather work with guys as they are much easier to get along with, unfortunately in my line of work its more female based so i just suck it up as much as i can. what do you do? so what movie are you going to watch?

this makes 2 of us at least if thats any help. just courious if you feel as useless in life .?

I am watching The Social Network. Saw it a few times already, but it is something i can watch and clean so i dont have to pay attention. It was really good.Also gives me hope that a nobody can turn in to be a huge success

I am glad to see that you recognize the degree of control you have to direct your own life. I understand being tired - I get tired too, particularly when I'm in the pits. But when we recognize our own needs (as you have done) we are capable of overpowering own fatigue and forcing ourselves into having a life.

You don't have to suddenly be out and about all the time but you've got to consider your mind, body and "spirit" (or whatever you want to call the internal part of yourself). You've been doing puzzles - that's great for the mind. Now maybe try adding in a brisk walk or a game of squash with a friend (or whatever sport/game you like to play). It's extremely important not to isolate ourselves during these times, despite how badly we feel like we just want to be alone.

I dont know if i feel useless in life, but i just feel like i dont know what im meant to do to make me happy. I feel so guilty for upsetting ,my family like this. I just want to feel normal. I guess waking up everyday and doing one thing is a step.

i also struggle with making my family upset. one thing my therapist told me was that guilt is a wqaste of an emotion, it does no good for you or the other person. i tell myself that over and over when i feel guilty. there is really nothing you can do to change a persons view/feelings only your own. feeling normal is a state of mind, who determines what normal is!?!
i have not seen the social network, was thinking of watching it this weekend with my brother. at least it gives you hope!