Did you contact a crisis line--bottom of page. You came here to tell us how you feel so hopefully you have a sliver of hope.
Do not take the next step. I am suffering too, but make a commitment to hold on until you talk to a crisis worker, counselor or go to the ER.
There is help, it can take time for the storm to pass

You can try to commit suicide, but remember that many people try but rarely succeed. If you try and end up surviving you'll have to live with the consequences it causes.

You have to realize that life sucks and there is no way out. We are all stuck here, so the sooner you stop wishing for the sweet release of death and start working on solutions to improve you situation little by little, the sooner you'll be over this depression. Depression isn't permanent, there is an end. Just hold on, day by day, and it will pass.

what's your plan?
if you kill yourself then will you experience relief?
have you read hamlet? -kenneth braunaugh's hamlet (film) is unabridged and purdy goot
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life is a lot of pain. I accidentally killed a rabbit and I felt horrible
don't kill