hugs!

I see on your profile that you say Paxil isn't working. You know there are many other options, keep trying there's still many chances out there for you! Different medications, maybe a different therapist? Have you thought of trying cognitive behavioural therapy? I found it so helpful in dealing with my suicidal thoughts.
You're so young and even though you may not feel it right now there is still so much potential and strength inside you. You just need a push in the right direction?

You say you hate yourself? What makes you hate yourself? Make a list? Do these things even make sense or is your brain telling you lies?

What is good about you? do some soul searching because I know you have a lot of beautiful qualities, everyone does. Hang on to them, remember them.

Please hold on!

I understand that you feel release when you S/I and I don't have much knowledge about, but I am very sorry for your suffering so badly that you feel that you want to disappear.

You do understand that it's just a feeling, and it WILL pass, I hope? I know it's a very powerful feeling, but you must find a way to get past it.. to get on the other side of it.

There are proven methods of treatments to help you to feel better and have a happier life. If you have not told your parents about your feelings, I think it's time to do so right now.

If you want to talk to someone personally, please call one of the crisis hotlines by clicking on the blue tab at the bottom of the page.

Please talk to your parents.

Please make that phone call. The people are very nice and understand the feelings you are having.

You've got nothing to lose,give other meds or therapy a try,may as well if you're going to kill yourself eh?Love from me to you

Oh, don't give up yet! Keep looking for solutions, reaching out for help, and know that you are not alone!

call the doctor right away. Some people have a really bad reaction to Paxil. You may be one of them.

I feel self distructive and not self destructive enough?

You are not ALONE!! There are so many meds out there to help you over the hump!! Call your Doctor. And so many people here.....who have made it through the rough rode. Hang on and keep talking that is what why we are all here is to help one another.

Honey, please don't go. You are such a lovely person. Please keep trying.

Well, this is my first time on here and I find someone more messed up then me! Honey, dont do something stupid, at least not today. Maybe you can help me out. Cause I sure know I need a friend.

Aww hun, anything I can do?

After, what may be the closest to what death I have experienced after taking Remeron for four or five days, I can say, "Never again." I wondered if this miracle drug that actually had a glimmer of hope was too good to be true and indeed it was. Out of the rare side effects occurring in less than or greater to 1/1000 people I was stricken with lowering of white blood cells, agranulocytoma, and the nasties that came with it.

I need not elaborate; it was pure misery. Not having a choice to chose life and actually physically feeling that my energy was dwindling was beyond disturbing. Even more so than when I actually wanted to end my life. Its easy to make that choice out of very bad days. Feeling like I could not control or chose living was just beyond terror.

Sure, the Remeron made me feel great the first day but the physical side effects may last a life time.

I don't know what to say... Cherish what little you and we collectively have.