I am feeling pretty scared myself right now flutterfly, trying to keep my mind from cracking. What is scaring you?

Suicidal/ self harm thoughts. You?

Me, well I am scared I won't get better mentally and emotionally, that depression will paralyse me from doing what I need to do, I am scared of not being able to find a job and possibly being homelss, I am scared I may lose contact with my daughter who lives with her father right now, that we will lose the connection we have, haven't seen her since November, she lives out of province, I am scared I won't be able to visit her for a long time, I am scared I won't meet a man that may possibly love me and me love him.

I tried to self harm once or twice but even a little bit of pain was too much for me. I've had really low points in depression where I thought about killing myself too or just being dead. Those are really low points. I don't know if you live with your family, though if they are sympathetic you can turn to them for some encouragement and warm hugs or if you have a good friend to call. Have you thought about doing therapy? You have to turn those thoughts to some kind of hope and at one point you will choose to live or life and not death. That's what happened to me, there was just a bit of hope in me and also I have some spirituality though am having a tough time feeling it these days. Keep talking here if it helps. Many of us have been there and though the same things, felt similar pain with our lives.

I hope I didn't scare you more flutterfly, it may help if you talk about it here, what's making you feel suicidal and wanting to self harm? You can also post on the General Depression board, there are more people there and you will probably get more replies. Anyway, hang in there, it can get better if you try.

Thank- you. You didn't scare me at all. I guess I just can't stand the pain any more.

Yes, I understand you want the pain to stop. That is not the same thing as wanting to die though it feels like it. Pain hurts us and is there, I think to make us want to change whether that be change what's on the inside or what's on the outside that is part of us. Think about what the pain is telling you, the answers are there, the thing is to actually do or change what the pain that stays there is saying.

I can't do this any more. :'(

Can you come to the support group? we can maybe help a lot or a little, depends on what you want, F. Namaste!

FD, I hear you. I will "go vertical" that is, pray. Miracles happen. You are one of them.

When I am that down, sometimes all I can do is tell myself that the reason for feeling like that is simply because I am at my low point. I tell myself it's cause I am depressed, not because I want to actually do it. I tell myself that The more emotional roots you can think of the more stable you will feel...hopefully...

Anyway, what works for me doesn't work for everyone but sometimes it kept me from hurting myself. People care for you. Even us on here... hopefully that helps. :)

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What I mean is... just try to think of reasons to stay... Think of family or friends. I have a friend who decided to not hurt herself because she wanted to be there for her cat. Thats your roots.

And try to fight the feelings... You have us here to help. :)

Everyone gets scared sometimes, just tell yourself that it will pass, it usually does. There is always a new tomorrow and a chance to have a better day, stick around and you'll see. Things change all the time.

I'm scared too.

Billi

THAT PEOPLE CARE, AND KNOWING THAT THEY DO IS REALLY HUGE! IF YOU CAN LET THAT IN, IT WILL, PERHAPS, HELP YOU AS IT HELPS ME, AND SO MANY OTHERS. NAMASTE!

Thank- you!:)
Billi, why are you scared?