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I wish it weren't so, but I've always had trouble feeling good about myself when I'm surrounded by such amazing people.
Don't get me wrong, I am so lucky to have these people in my life...but somehow(out of pure selfishness I'm sure) it makes me feel like such a worthless individual.
It's not like they live to "show me up" or anything. Obviously not. But I'm making myself feel so unaccomplished by comparing all the time. I just want it to stop.
I know its all on me.
But I can't help thinking that if I'm doing all this comparing then all my loved ones must be doing it too. In my mind it's like, if I see this person being so awesome then my husband must be seeing it too and wondering why I'M not that way.
It's a really immature line of thought, I know.
I'm having trouble dragging myself out of it.
Maybe it's the holidays and this underlying expectation to give.
I really don't know.
I'm hitting a wall here.
I'll stop rambling now :)
Don't get me wrong, I am so lucky to have these people in my life...but somehow(out of pure selfishness I'm sure) it makes me feel like such a worthless individual.
It's not like they live to "show me up" or anything. Obviously not. But I'm making myself feel so unaccomplished by comparing all the time. I just want it to stop.
I know its all on me.
But I can't help thinking that if I'm doing all this comparing then all my loved ones must be doing it too. In my mind it's like, if I see this person being so awesome then my husband must be seeing it too and wondering why I'M not that way.
It's a really immature line of thought, I know.
I'm having trouble dragging myself out of it.
Maybe it's the holidays and this underlying expectation to give.
I really don't know.
I'm hitting a wall here.
I'll stop rambling now :)
Im sure that others are not seeing you this way. A little work on the self-esteem and self-worth would help..
Try to not think about it, take some deep breaths and try to enjoy the holidays and get them over with.. I wish for you that next year brings you more joy.................hugs..
That is just how I am after hearing about other people's lives....
I try to be happy for their success and general wondefullness, but mostly I just feel like I could never measure up. And I rarely feel like i live up to my husband's expectations....or my own for that matter.
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I know that I need to work on my self esteem, but really have no idea how to start. Even with all these people telling me that I am worth it and that I am a great person.
I can't seem to see what they see.
I hope the best for you two as well!
Good luck..