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This might explain somewhat?

Please help me.

ok, you are right... don't get married.... at least don't get married until you take one of those couple compatibility tests... to find out where your relationship stands... they are dead on and can be helpful....

I honestly don't know of too many relationships that work out when one partner has rules for the other one to follow but then I've never been a very submissive person.

is your sister in the hospital now getting some help?

My roommates sister, but yes she is.

And I'm exactly submissive either. Don't think this relationship will ever work out.

well if you dont think it will work out for sure dont get married. You will just have lots of headache and heartache later.

Have enough of that already thank you. Can I please murder someone now?

Why not?

well... there would be the whole jail thing... and the total submission to the jailers not to mention the likely submission to the other jailee's not to mention the blood would stain.....

I never said I have to stay alive after

well then what would be the point??? then he would win and he would have controlled you to the end... and I thought we were tryng to avoid that!

ya, but right now I'd just happy if it were over.

You know a lot of bad stuff happened, but I'd say these were very positive weeks.

Your roommate's sister is finally getting the help she needs. I know that Sat. morning must have been hellish, but look at the good it has brought.

Your fiance put his foot down and not being willing to marry you until you shape up and get well. That must have hurt you to the very marrow of your bones and more. BUT now you know who he is and what he really thinks. Thank God you found out *before* the wedding. If he has so little compassion for an illness, you are better off without him and despite the terrible pain he is causing you, it is far better to learn now. You deserve better and you will find better.

so end it... without killing yourself or him...just end it... so much less messy than suicide or murder....'side the blood would make your lovely white paws all pink and red.

Sometimes knowing what we have to do and doing what we have to do are two very different things... And facing stuff we don't wanna face is never... well exciting to face.... but you'll feel a whole lot better when you finally do.

hugs, you'll get through this and be ok and there are lots here who will give you support when you need it.

Thing is, I'm not upset about the fact that I'm not marrying him. Just the accusations he's making of me, and everything he's done to me, and continues to do. And that I was stupid enough to fall for his lies a second time.

When you love somebody, or think you do, it can make you act incredibly stupid. But your safety and happiness is of utmost importance. If he's making you unhappy and is (obviously) trying to control you, then for heaven's sake don't marry him!

PS: I luv your kittycat.

Please don't kill yourself or anyone else... that won't solve anything.

Pick something that you want to do that doesn't have to depend on anyone else... and go do that. It's no more effort than a murder-suicide... and ends much more pleasantly.................