Hi. I'm new and really nervous as I post this. I joined this group because I am verbally, emotionally/mentally, and every once in awhile physically abused by my family. Also cyber sexual abuse from someone online. My parents are both alcoholics who don't see a problem with it and make fun of me for not wanting to drink ever. That's not all. I have VERY low self esteem. I tell people I'm a mistake and an accident. I'm ugly, fat and don't deserve the friends I have. I have no purpose here and don't deserve to be here. The reason I have this negative image of myself is my abusive mother. I have been bullied since kindergarten. I'm an 11th grader. I've also been sexually harassed and almost taken advantage of by my first boyfriend when we dated. Now my ex who harassed me every day. Said it was his job to do so. He finally left but I never fully healed from that. My mom wasn't on my side when I told her. I become depressed last year and talked to a counselor. Mom said I embarrassed her because she got a call from counselor to come in. I came out of depression but got back in it once I found out I have PTSD from the guy that cyber sexually abused me. Then people on here helped me realize I am being abused and that added to the depression. I haven't hurt myself but have tried many times and stopped myself before I have. I hope that this group is for me and that I belong here. Do I belong here?
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