Depression - Teen Support Group
Teen depression is marked by persistent sadness, discouragement, loss of self-worth, and loss of interest in usual activities. Depression can be a temporary response to many situations and stresses. Teens may be more susceptible to depression due to the normal maturation process, the stress associated with it, and conflicts with parents as they become more independent.
Your parents won't let you get help, and are trying to make you get the help yourself?
Unless I'm wrong. But you definitely should talk to someone about this, not necessarily a professional but someone you trust.
Talking is key. Keep talking here, too.