Don't die. Please tell us what happened.

everything is wrong
i cant get up the stupid courage to tell my mom i need help and i cant stop thinking about the "incident" (in my about me)
and i cant take it and i just dot wanna be here!

you cant! dying is just taking the easy way out. Just try talking to her tell her what is going on

Just breathe. You can do this. If you can't tell your mother what's going on, maybe you could write her a letter. Explain to her, in that letter, what you're going through and that you need help. Maybe she won't hesitate to get you the help you want.

just breathe.....relax...you can het through this....explain to me what is happening...message me....we can trade stories and talk it out...

I took me years to tell my mom that I needed help and it took even longer for me to actually gain the courage to go to therapy. My friend even offered to go into therapy and talk for me and be my support, because she knows me and my life better than I do. It takes time, but I believe you will evetually get there and build up the strength that you need. I wasn't molested, but I have been physically and emotionally abused for most of my childhood by people in my family. I sucks because you're supposed to feel safe within your own home, but for years I felt like some people in my family were going to kill. I couldn't go to sleep at night without knowing that everyone was asleep and I slept completely covered by my blankets with my feet on my pillow and my head at the end of the bed, so if I was going to be beaten in my sleep, I would get hit in the feet and not my face.

Self pity is sometimes hard to avoid, but try not to think in that mind set. Exercising helps elevate a mood, go for a walk, listen to music, tell us stuff that's bothering you and we will do that same. Obviously you don't want to die, you want help. That's great. I was scared to ask for help, but I e mailed a suicide prevention place, and they told me, that everyone has a level of bull shit you can put up with until you become depressed. Your not weak, there's no reason to be ashamed. Hope this helps. xoxoxox

don't give up. there's always hope, even when it seems like there's none. just calm yourself down and think up of what to say when you tell your mom about what's going on.

well right now shes mad at me
i dont even know what to say
i just idk!

Why is she mad at you?

cuz i complained about her logging me off my email so she could sign in, when she has her own computer

Hmm...I see. You should try to apologize to her. Now before you get mad, here's the reason why. If you apologize to her, that could get her up to a good mood. Once that happens, you can try to open up to her and tell her what you're going through.

i wasnt gonna get mad :)
i kno i prolly should apologize and i thik i might do as u suggested :)

I really hope it helps then.

i just asked her and she said i had to get referred and then she asked if i was having problems coping with something
and i told her yes and she asked what
and then she started trying to guess cuz i shrugged my shoulders
and she guessed everything but the thing and she knows what happened to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why woould she do that to me it was like torture to get hearing her guesses and then i walked away and shes like "i dont appreciate u making me guess"