Depression - Teen Support Group
Teen depression is marked by persistent sadness, discouragement, loss of self-worth, and loss of interest in usual activities. Depression can be a temporary response to many situations and stresses. Teens may be more susceptible to depression due to the normal maturation process, the stress associated with it, and conflicts with parents as they become more independent.
I like to think that I'm okay, I fake a smile, force a laugh and everyone believes it. Sometimes I convince myself that I'm okay, but only one person can see through it all. She was my best friend, she meant the world to me, she was always there for me when I would have an anxiety attack or a breakdown. She always knew what was wrong, no matter how many times I tell her I'm okay, she knows I'm not. All the lies I told her she saw through them all. I told her everything, and I let her get close. I always swore to myself I would never let anyone get that close, because everyone leaves in the end. I started ignoring her, and she did the same, then one day she text me and we talked everything out. I told her why I ignored her and she swore she would never leave me. I believed her, I always do. A week later I started getting those thoughts again, this time instead of telling her, I ignored her even more. I blocked her on all my social media apps and I even deleted her number. I thought it was the best thing to do, but I realized she was my rock, she kept me together. I don't want to let her get any closer, but I can't make it without her. I still haven't talked to her.
And when your depressed, it distorts your perception of the world and people around you. I would push everyone away cause i thought they were terrible, or i was,or they would all leave me eventually, etc. You get tired of it, enough is enough.
Have you thought about talking to her again? do it. Maybe pray about the matter. Maybe go to jw.org for answers.
Bottom line, it's your life, you do what you want. you can chose to be happy or sad, suvive or alive, but it's up to YOU. not me, not her, not God, if you believe in God. And look i'm not trying to be mean, it's what i wish someone would have told me. life is short, be friends with this girl before it's too late. Good luck.