Depression - Teen Support Group
Teen depression is marked by persistent sadness, discouragement, loss of self-worth, and loss of interest in usual activities. Depression can be a temporary response to many situations and stresses. Teens may be more susceptible to depression due to the normal maturation process, the stress associated with it, and conflicts with parents as they become more independent.
Well, I don't really know what I'm supposed to be doing on this site so I just decided to ramble my emotions considering I've never done that. So, um... I come from a good family, strict but good. My mom is very Christian, and it's sometimes annoying. My dad is good with computers and we have that in common which is fun. I have a five year old sister who looks up to me and adores me. My brother is rather abusive, he would sit on me so he can see my face turn purple because he thinks it's funny, he would punch my arm right after I broke it, he always calls me fat and stupid (that's why I'm anorexic). Since my cousin is visiting from South Africa he's been less abusive since he and my cousin wrestle a lot. My family is wealthy, not rich but wealthy, and they can easily send me to a therapist if they thought I need help. I know that they care about me and they would like to help me if they know my problems, same with my friends but they're not good at helping and they would just go to the school counselor. I don't have a lot of friends but I like the ones I have, they're nice and funny.
Lately my friends have been getting mad at me. I've always hid my depression with a smile around people but lately I can't seem to summon one as good as I used to. They ask me what's wrong and I try to explain some of it but I can't. I can't tell people how I feel about things or what I want because my mother always did that for me and controlled my life for a long time. So, I try but there's a million tiny things and no real reasons for why I feel the way I do, so I've just been telling them it's because I'm not sleeping well and they buy it. That lie doesn't make them mad.
I've got my list of problems, could be bigger, could be smaller. I've been cutting for a while, or at least used to since I lost my cutters. I'm anorexic because people call me fat and now I'm about 103 pounds (17 below the average for my height). I've had suicidal thoughts but they never lead anywhere, I'm too much of a coward and I'm scared. I always procrastinate and I have horrible motivation. I would always postpone everything and not study for any tests. I've been suicidal since I've been twelve but I'm just too scared, there's so much that could happen. I'm really scared of what others think of me and I'm really shy and quiet. I barley do anything without being scared of what people think.
I find religion interesting. There's so many and you never know which one is real. There's no real solid proof and according so some religions you can't pray for a sign because you need faith in believing that whatever god is the real god. The afterlife scares me, An eternity of pain or salvation. You just need to pick the right religion. Except it's not that simple, it requires patience, faith, devotion, money, time, effort.
So, yea. This is me. It would mean a lot to me if someone says something because I want help, I really do, just not from someone I know. Sorry if this is in the wrong section but this is my first post. I have no idea what to do with my life at the moment.
Lately my friends have been getting mad at me. I've always hid my depression with a smile around people but lately I can't seem to summon one as good as I used to. They ask me what's wrong and I try to explain some of it but I can't. I can't tell people how I feel about things or what I want because my mother always did that for me and controlled my life for a long time. So, I try but there's a million tiny things and no real reasons for why I feel the way I do, so I've just been telling them it's because I'm not sleeping well and they buy it. That lie doesn't make them mad.
I've got my list of problems, could be bigger, could be smaller. I've been cutting for a while, or at least used to since I lost my cutters. I'm anorexic because people call me fat and now I'm about 103 pounds (17 below the average for my height). I've had suicidal thoughts but they never lead anywhere, I'm too much of a coward and I'm scared. I always procrastinate and I have horrible motivation. I would always postpone everything and not study for any tests. I've been suicidal since I've been twelve but I'm just too scared, there's so much that could happen. I'm really scared of what others think of me and I'm really shy and quiet. I barley do anything without being scared of what people think.
I find religion interesting. There's so many and you never know which one is real. There's no real solid proof and according so some religions you can't pray for a sign because you need faith in believing that whatever god is the real god. The afterlife scares me, An eternity of pain or salvation. You just need to pick the right religion. Except it's not that simple, it requires patience, faith, devotion, money, time, effort.
So, yea. This is me. It would mean a lot to me if someone says something because I want help, I really do, just not from someone I know. Sorry if this is in the wrong section but this is my first post. I have no idea what to do with my life at the moment.
CountryBabiDoll
when you can't smile just laugh even if it fakes you will better (something scientific that makes you just feel better) If you need someone to talk to (im kinda in the same boat with the parents and depression) I am always here. I don't judge. I don't tell your story to others. Please smile even if it is weak it is better than nothing
nerftin
I try to smile, everyday, but I can't make it last longer that a minute, no matter how hard I try. I want to talk to people but no one really understands and they always get annoyed so I just bottle it up.
CountryBabiDoll
I find it easier to talk online or to random strangers. That is just me though to. Some have trust issues and can't do that. But anyways (: than cry, run, skip, jump, write, draw, or even play with your pet (if you have one). Do some extra work around like the neighbor hood. Not only will you have to get out of the house you can build a relationship with someone that you may be able to confide in later. I suggest old ppl :P i live with my grandparents so we have better relationship because they understand. IF you NEED help get it (: it is never bad. It is mature. And it is the best medicine out there. Otherwise chat on here with people. I love talking and helping people so don't be afraid (: to just speak.
nerftin
I also find online easier as well as strangers, I don't know why but it is for me. I don't have a pet and I can't cry, not anymore at least, I can't draw or write. Most of what I write is really depressing and include suicide. It's really hard for me to meet new people and open up, I'm awkward around people I don't know and I don't talk louder than a quiet whisper, soon they just give up on trying to listen to me. It doesn't help with the friends I have now either, I lost two friends today. I like talking to people on the internet, I'm not as shy and I open up faster, it's just hard to find sites that don't try to make your life a living ****.
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