Depression - Teen Support Group

Teen depression is marked by persistent sadness, discouragement, loss of self-worth, and loss of interest in usual activities. Depression can be a temporary response to many situations and stresses. Teens may be more susceptible to depression due to the normal maturation process, the stress associated with it, and conflicts with parents as they become more independent.

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I can't do this anymore....

Jenn0
Jenn0
I don't even know why I am posting this...I don't feel like I want any help...I just want it to end. My parents think I'm a bitch, and they don't even want me. All they want is a drugged up me. I'm not good enough for them when I am not on my medication. My mother blames me for all the negativity that happens at my house. She even said it. I've been feeling slightly suicidal lately, and this just topped it off. I know tonight that I will cut. I haven't cut in a while, about two months, but I know I will end up doing it tonight. I don't even feel like I want to stop myself. I just wish I wasn't such a wimp and I could actually cut enough where I would die. I just want this fucking shit to end. I feel like I'm on an emotional roller coaster, only the ride never goes up. I'm either pissed off, or suicidal/depressed. It fucking sucks. I'm tired. I'm tired of dealing with this shit. I'm only a fucking teenager. There is no way I can get through another 50 years like this. I can't even handle the pressure of graduating. There is no way I will handle life. I'm afraid. I'm just fucking tired....I wish something would kill me. I wish that I will get in a car accident or someone will shoot me or something like that. I want it to happen so badly....
deleted_user
deleted_user
You're just venting to anyone that will listen. Life is horrible yes, but it's also full of beauty, maybe something you haven't found yet. Life is only going to get harder, but for different reasons. And when it does, you'll be more equipped to handle them b/c of what you're dealing with now. You may feel pathetic, you may feel like the best way to just let it end, but it only makes you a stronger person, with a stronger soul. Will power and determination only goes so far, it's about putting it in the right place. Keeping yourself in the right state of mind. As far as being pissed off or depressed, I'm with you there. No friends, no gf, no life. But I also know that if I keep pushing good things will eventually happen. As far as being good enough for your parents, don't even worry of it. First you need to be good enough for yourself. Cry, do it. Do it often, it's a nice release, be angry. Do it, just direct it toward positively, let your anger motivate you, push you, but to do the right things. Life will eventually end, there is no need wishing for it. Do what you can with the time you actually have. That's all you can do.
deleted_user
deleted_user
It doesn't need to be this way for fifty years more. It's kind of impossible to see it when you're in the middle of it all, but someday you really could feel better. I didn't think I'd ever be able to function again, but I am now.

I don't know very much about you, obviously. But it seems like your parents are part of the problem here.

Maybe you could tell me about your situation with the medication. Feel free to talk to me anytime.