Depression - Teen Support Group
Teen depression is marked by persistent sadness, discouragement, loss of self-worth, and loss of interest in usual activities. Depression can be a temporary response to many situations and stresses. Teens may be more susceptible to depression due to the normal maturation process, the stress associated with it, and conflicts with parents as they become more independent.
This has been going on for nearly 2 years now. Everyday I go through periods of random, extreme depression. This began my Freshmen year in high school and I thought it was just the stress of the work.
It gradually began to get worse and reflected it in my grades. I had straight A's, but I got 2 high B' s so my parents got pissed. I told them I had been running depressed and to quote my dad "So what?"
It did nothing but get worse and worse, but it stopped for nearly 3 weeks at one point. But when it came back, it hit hard.
Its at its worst when my life starts to become okay again. When my grades start to go back up, when I have a steady relationship, when everything starts to become just a little easier. That's when the depression comes in and screws everything up.
I think it might be linked to all the emotional tear downs I've had. I've been cheated on about 10 times, lied to 4, and at one point a girl got her new boyfriend to call me at 5:45 in the morning one day before our one month anniversary, to tell me its over.
No matter what I do, its never good enough for my family. I make the honor roll, mom gets mad cause I didn't make the high honor roll or the principals list. My oldest brother is an amazing musician but highly conceited. Whenever I say something that might even suggest I'm a good musician, or good at anything really, he tears me down and insists I'm not.
I tried to tell my parents, but they don't take a damned word seriously! A few months back I began to cut myself because it works better than anything I've tried. Hell, they've seen the marks but don't care! I feel worthless on a regular basis, and just to keep myself from being depressed I have to cut a little deeper each time. For the first time in my life, I'm suicidal. I just want to be done with all of this.
It gradually began to get worse and reflected it in my grades. I had straight A's, but I got 2 high B' s so my parents got pissed. I told them I had been running depressed and to quote my dad "So what?"
It did nothing but get worse and worse, but it stopped for nearly 3 weeks at one point. But when it came back, it hit hard.
Its at its worst when my life starts to become okay again. When my grades start to go back up, when I have a steady relationship, when everything starts to become just a little easier. That's when the depression comes in and screws everything up.
I think it might be linked to all the emotional tear downs I've had. I've been cheated on about 10 times, lied to 4, and at one point a girl got her new boyfriend to call me at 5:45 in the morning one day before our one month anniversary, to tell me its over.
No matter what I do, its never good enough for my family. I make the honor roll, mom gets mad cause I didn't make the high honor roll or the principals list. My oldest brother is an amazing musician but highly conceited. Whenever I say something that might even suggest I'm a good musician, or good at anything really, he tears me down and insists I'm not.
I tried to tell my parents, but they don't take a damned word seriously! A few months back I began to cut myself because it works better than anything I've tried. Hell, they've seen the marks but don't care! I feel worthless on a regular basis, and just to keep myself from being depressed I have to cut a little deeper each time. For the first time in my life, I'm suicidal. I just want to be done with all of this.
Yes, you have been hurt, and are under a lot of stress from parents who seem to simply "not get it", but you are still hanging on!
You sound like you could use someone to talk to. Is there a school counselor or psychologist that you could hang out with and talk?
I'm also here if you want to talk. I too had to try to navigate the pressures that came with trying to maintain a perfect GPA under very DEMANDING parents among other stresses. But I talked to one of my teachers and got help.
Trust me. I gets better.
try talkin to ur school counsler or something. u did the right thing to join this website cuz u get to interact with people that care about u. as for cutting urself, i get urges to injure myself to. try putting ice cubes on ur bare skin as an alternative to cutting urself. put the ice cube wherever u would have cut urself (or somewhere sensitive to coldness) n hold it there, without moving it to a different location, until it has totally melted. if it aint enough keep doing it on the same spot with more ice cubes on that same spot til its numb. then find a different spot.
i know what ur feelin. i feel like im nothing n totally worthless. my sister is really smart n great at alot of things n i suck at everything. my parents thinks she is so great and will succeed in all she does n that i will fail in everything. they hate everything about me. my dad n everyone i know says im stupid. im guna be a junior in high school n i have no friends except for one. n he thinks its funny to make jokes about me not having other friends, n never having a girlfriend. i almost had a girlfriend once, she really liked me im just crazy about her. but i ruined all my chances!! i miss her so much. i ruin everything. i feel real lonely n depressed.
in the past i was suicidal cuz things were bad then too, but afterwards they got better n for a while life was actually great. LIFE DOES GET BETTER!!! NOTHING LASTS FOREVER - NOT EVEN THE BAD TIMES IN LIFE! things got bad for me again eventually, but that doesnt mean it will happen to u too. u will be happy some day. i promise. just dont make the mistake i almost made by killing urself. its not worth it.
i hoped this helped:)
you already took your first step towards recovery, towards being happy! you just have to keep making those crucial steps. you have the guts to have survived this long. you have the guts, maybe you dont think so, but you do have the guts to survive and be someone. you posted this online, and told all of us, total strangers, there must be someone, a teacher, friend, doctor, a hotline, someone you can talk to, who can help you take action in your life. please, stop cutting yourself.
i know i must be no one from your point of view, but you have the right to be happy, like all of us.
if no one will listen i will.