I feel so alone all the time and i just can't shake that feeling. I've never had a bf/gf, or even had anyone interested. I barely have any friends and have no clue what i want to do with my future. All i no is that i just need to get away from here, from my family and my friends; because then maybe i can get away from me. I try to talk to them about the way i feel but i can't i can't tell them that i might like girls or that i want to move to a big city and become an actress or a painter or something exciting because then they would no that i am damaged goods or at least to them i would be and what do you do with damaged goods you send them away and never look back. My bff is also or it seems that way in competiton she inside brags and flaunts that she is ffa officer of our chapter even though i didn't run, she brags about her grades if their better then mine, the laughs at me and says my car is ugly and that "her" meaning her mom and dads truck is better than my car and she'll never ride in it and she calls me names is a joking way but it still hurts. I just feel like the whole world has taken sides against me.
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