You're not thinking rationally. Take some deep breaths and understand that she's worried because she loves you. Did something happen that you would like to talk about? Feel free to message me if you want to vent. It'll be okay, I promise. Things naturally get better over time. Through this period, I urge you to stay in touch with those you love and do your best not to isolate yourself. Best of luck.

you don't have to put on a fake smile and pretend you're ok if you're not. i think pretending we're ok when we aren't just makes us resent the people we feel we have to fake it for.
find someone you can be honest and real with and don't have to pretend at all with so you at least have that realness outlet somewhere.

I have almost killed myself but just before my life flashed before my eyes I was saved by my friend as soon I realized I was alive and was saved by my friend I punched him as soon as I saw him in the face ..that incident have scared me but I still want to kill myself, I hate myself, I hate everything and everyone around me...No one even cares about me so whats the point but the only thing that kept me from death was my hatred for people and how I would make their lives more miserable than mine that and some other reason.

I see that you haven't replied, and I'm just hoping that you're ok :) Remember that storms never last, so whatever you're going through it will soon get better for you, and you'll just remember this as a bad time you managed to get through and you'll be proud of yourself.
Whenever bad thoughts come to your mind and you're tempted to hurt yourself.. Take a paper and a pen and write down your feelings, and then just throw the paper. It helps to get it out of your chest. You will be fine :)

OMG talk to me sometime