Depression - Teen Support Group
Teen depression is marked by persistent sadness, discouragement, loss of self-worth, and loss of interest in usual activities. Depression can be a temporary response to many situations and stresses. Teens may be more susceptible to depression due to the normal maturation process, the stress associated with it, and conflicts with parents as they become more independent.
I feel both stuck and lost. I have no idea what to do. No one wants to be around me, my own boyfriend doesn't want to talk to me, my best friend doesn't even want to be with me now that she has her new boyfriend. I feel alone and the feeling doesn't go away, not even when I am with people. My mom wants me to go to therapy, but it kills me that we need to pay for someone to be willing to talk to me. Adults ask what the problem is, but when I tell them, no one listens! They always misconstrew what I say even though I say it clearly. I say "I'm upset because I'm lonely and you guys won't spend time with me" and they call my mother and say that they think I was molested! My step dad doesn't listen to my problems either and when I try to explain, says I "need to get the last word in". He thinks he knows exactly how I feel and why I feel that way. My mom tries to be an open ear, but she gets mad when I try explaining my feelings. I don't feel like I should bother anymore. During the rare event that my boyfriend is around, I tell him I want him to speak to me more often and gets mad. Then, to calm down, leaves me alone again. Then, another friend of mine told me to kill myself because I'm annoying. When I told him he was an a$$hole for saying that, he said "K bye I'm going to sleep". I've been feeling down for about 6 years and I don't remember a moment where I felt better. Even on vacation, I was inside most of the time crying and babysitting for free. I lost all motivation to do anything and not even the things that once made me calm down interest me. Everything bores me and IDK what to do anymore. I'm alone, tired, and dull. All I want is a friend...
But here's the thing. No one is born knowing all it takes to make and keep GOOD friends and not just useless assholes that SAY they are friends. No one is born knowing how to cope with stress, or boredom or depression. It's all skills, and you have to be TAUGHT skills by someone who understands them.
A GOOD therapist is about teaching people how to deal with like, other people, family, and all that. So you aren't paying someone to talk to you, you're paying someone to teach you how to get what you want. Make sense?
Now you COULD teach yourself this stuff, I did in high school, out of a LOT of books. And if you INSIST on doing it the hard way, I can point you in some good directions. But it sounds like you're not at all happy. So why not learn this stuff the easy way?
Either way it's your call, but if you want to learn it yourself I can suggest some places to start.